❝Goddammit! I hate you! I hate you and your dumb voice! and your stupid muscles and your awfully attractive face!❞
❝You think I'm attractive?❞
❝Fuck no!❞
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Dangerous, wild and rebellious.
Calm, cool and collected.
Darya just wan...
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I look at the message in the group chat, planning out what I'm going to do already.
I could already hear the cogs moving in my head at the thought of going to a fancy party.
I roll my eyes playfully at Lucy message that follows the reminder of the party.
Lucy — 10:22am i hope you guys haven't forgotten about the party <3
Lucy — 10:25am please guys, i can't go alone with ethan he's boring...
Ethan — 10:27am Wow Lucy, just wow.
I giggle at his response, stiffening when I finally realized what I was doing.
Clearing my throat, I turn my attention back to the group chat Lucy made. When we were coming back from the field trip, Lucy screamed when she noticed we had no group chat. Literally screamed, making me wake up from my nap in Ethan arms.
Ethan.
God, Ethan. He was so sweet during the whole trip, even during the ride home where we didn't even bother making a conversation, just seeking comfort in each other's arms, not wanting to be out of our little bubble.
And the conversation we had. It was confusing. Right from where he confessed on having a crush on this mysterious girl to his face when I told him I wasn't trying to find anything serious.
It's messing with my head and I hate it. I completely despised the way my heart dropped when I found out he liked someone else. Like I had a chance any way.
Something changed during the ride home and I'm sure we both felt it. I was too intrigued trying to find out what it was that I didn't even nothing whatever conversation they had in the car.
I focused on the foreign pressure blooming in my chest. The way he held me. The freedom and security, and our bodies entwined together like two flames, making me feel safe in a man's arms.
Soulmates. That's how it felt, it's scary. So fucking scary.
It was his eyes. The way he was looking at me. The feelings he stirred inside of me with that obnoxious gleam of reverence. Feelings I feel disgusted having. Feelings I don't deserve. Feelings that's got me thinking that maybe, just maybe i'm not completely broken as I thought I was.
Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined.
Shaking my head, I pull myself from self wallowing, hating how a boy brought this much of reaction from me.
I made it a point to stay away from Ethan for a while. Just until I get to figure out my feelings.
Sighing I returned back for the texts that dwells on Lucy and Ethan going back and forth with occasional comments from Kai, and that's when I frowned. Ever since we got back from the field trip, I've heard little to none response from Chanel.
