Trusting a Stranger (Zayn Malik Fan Fiction)

Chapter 5

R's POV

"Oh my gosh." I looked around my room. There was a huge queen sized bed made out of cedar wood, with a matching dresser and side table. ''This is amazing. Thank you." I tried my best to give him a real smile, but that has been so hard to do the past few years.

"Go look at the closet, it's huge." I walked over to the closet. He wasn't kidding, it was almost as big as the room itself!

"This is nothing like my flat. I've actually never been in here. Mr. Cromwell never invited me in. The only time I really saw him was when he heard me screaming in my sleep." I told him awkwardly.

"How often is that?" I froze when he asked me that. Should I really admit that I have these nightmares every night? We are going to be living in the same flat from now on, so I guess he has the right to know that my ear screeching screams will be waking him up every night. "Sorry, I shouldn't have asked." He must have sensed my embarrassment.

"No, you should know." Here we go Rebecca, time to tell him. "Every night." I say so quietly, I'm not even sure if he heard me.

"I'll always be here for you, Rebecca." He said just as quietly and pulled me into a hug. The position feels so comfortable, so right. "You're safe here, I won't ever let anyone hurt you."

"Careful, I don't want you to make promises you can't keep." I simply tell him. I know he can sense something wrong. But, I never want to relive my past.

"Is there something you aren't telling me? If we are going to be living here together, we need to be completely honest. You can trust me." I knew this day would come eventually, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to tell him my past just yet. "Rebecca, please tell me."

"Um, where should I start?" I ask him, trying to figure out how much of my scary past he wants to know.

"The beginning is usually the best."

"Ok. It all started at my old house in America. I was going out with a boy. His name was Michael. At first, he was great, I was only 16 but I was sure that I had found the guy for me. He had promised me he would never hurt me. We were going out for about 4 months, and on my birthday he took me out for dinner at a really fancy restaurant. After we ate, he took me back to his house. His parents were away for the weekend. He started to try stuff with me." Right then I started crying for the first time in over a year. "I tried to stop him, but he wouldn't get off of me. He then strapped me down to his bed and..." I couldn't finish that sentence, though I knew he understood what I was trying to say. He just held me, which was exactly what I needed.

We sat for about twenty minutes on the bed with me just crying into his shirt. He rubbed my back and repeated words like "I'm so sorry" or "You're okay now". Soon he started singing to me,

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me

But bear this mind it was meant to be

And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks

And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile,

You've never loved your stomach or your thighs

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine

But i'll love them endlessly

I won't let this little things slip out of my mouth

But if I do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to

I'm in love with you and all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea

Maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep

And all those conversations are the secrets that i keep

Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape

You never want to know how much you weigh

You still have to squeeze into your jeans

But

You're perfect to me

I won't let this little things slip out of my mouth

But if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to

I'm in love with you and all these little things

You never love yourself half as much as i love you

You'll never treat yourself right darling but i want you to

If i let you know, i'm here for you

Maybe you'll love yourself like i love you oh

I've just let these little things slips out of my mouth

'Cause it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to

And i'm in love with you, and all your little things.

"That song always makes me feel better." I say awkwardly. "Whenever I start feeling down, I always play this song."

"Really? Why this song?" He asked me in a soft tone as if he were to talk too loudly, then it would make me break again.

"It  makes me think that guys can actually take care of the person they love and not take advantage of them."

"Not all guys do that, you know."

"Yeah, I guess, but sometimes it's too damn hard to believe that." We stop talking for a while at just sit in silence. It isn't one of those uncomfortable silences, but it is calming and relaxing. Something that I need to do more often.

"Do you want to go get something to eat?" Zayn asks trying to end the silence.

"Sure! Do you want to go to Nando's? We could invite the other boys too!" I propose.

"Sounds like a plan. I'll go call them now, Niall would probably love to go!" Zayn said laughing at the end. He leaves the room for a while calling up all the boys, so I just continue looking through the room.

There is a bathroom attached to the room just for me. It is complete with a shower, bath tub, and lou. I never knew that there could be such a huge bathroom. This flat is so much bigger than my old one was. I could definitely get used to this! I grab the boxed label bathroom, and start unpacking all of my stuff. Some people say that I have too many hair and makeup products, but trust me, I need them. I look like I was in a car wreck right when I wake up every morning and these products are all that get me to look decent looking. Once I have everything neatly lined up in rainbow order (I have pretty bad OCD), Zayn walks into my room.

"And I thought I had a lot of hair products!" He says to me jokingly.

"Well if I'm going to look at least somewhat good each day, I'm gonna need all of this."

"Trust me, you don't need all of this to look amazing." He compliments me. For some reason I feel heat rushing to my cheeks. What is this feeling?

Am I starting to like Zayn Malik?

*I know the chapters are really short, but I'm going to try and make them longer! But, look at me! I updated! it only took me like six months!!! sorry for the wait. I've been extremely stressed out lately. It's currently about 1 am and I have an exam tomorrow in math, but who cares right?

-B