Just Say It

Chapter 23~ Things Left Unsaid

Days passed in a blur, most of my time being poured into getting ready for school while what little free time I had  was spent hanging out with friends and family. If possible I would choose to spend more time with Blake, but with school only weeks away, I absolutely had to get ready.

Andy had dropped by a couple times, joining me in little trips to the mall for dorm room shopping. My parents loved Andy from the beginning, although they were a little apprehensive at first glance with her brightly colored hair. Andy was fun, her personality bubbled with spunk and energy, she wasn't one to let a conversation die.

Lauren was going out of state for school, which was heartbreaking in ways. She was a dear friend, close to my heart, and as cliche as it sounds she was the sister I never had. When you grow up with a person your whole life, naturally a connection is established. Derek and her still debated whether staying together was a good idea or not. Options are: ending it now mutually or staying together and risking the possibility of a struggle later on. I had tried to give Lauren good advice although in the end it was ultimately up to her and Derek.

Logan was leaving in a few days to go back to school. Having one last year before he graduated, it was a little late to be transferring schools just to move closer to home so he decided he would finish out this year and then move back permanently. Whether he means to this town or just the state is beyond me, but as long as his location is known I don't care where he decides to reside.
Since my aunts funeral he has kept in consistent contact with our family friend Serena. Supposedly, Logan and her hit it off pretty well, which doesn't bother me in the slightest bit. If anything I'm actually really happy. As a twenty-one year old Logan should be starting to look for someone to settle down with.

As for Blake and me, we were as happy as a teenage couple could be! Our small squabbles and arguments did little to dent our relationship. At times he could get my blood boiling, but all the same he could make me feel like I was on cloud 9. I wouldn't trade him for the world. In the time that had passed since the concert, I had realized and placed a finger on the feeling that had washed over me.

I, Stacy Kline, was totally, and utterly in love with Blake Rackley.

First discovering my true feelings for this male that seemed to have a hold on my heart, was very frightening. I was scared to let Blake have that much control over my feelings. For many, I think they would agree, just the thought of someone basically holding your heart over your head, and trusting them not to drop it can be quite consternating.

But I decided, that if Blake had stuck with me this long, dealing with all my troubles and fears, I was willing to give him this part of me that I had never thought about or felt for anyone else.

Now, it was just me waiting for the perfect opportunity to tell him without fearing that Blake might not return the feelings.

"Stacy!" A voice called from downstairs.

I looked up from the box that I was packing, craning my neck towards the entrance to my room.

"Yeah? I'm upstairs!" I yelled back. Turning back to the pile of clothes that laid in a heap before me. Packing my clothes seemed to be the toughest part as I was one to just toss the clothing into drawers. Grumbling to myself, I folded another shirt.

Distant footsteps echoed as they made their way to the loft.

"Hey Ace."

I smiled to myself at the voice. I jumped up from my spot on the floor and jogged over to Blake. Wrapping my legs around his waist, I planted a hard kiss on his lips.

We kissed for a little before I could feel Blake start to smile. Pulling back I looked at Blake, his eyes shimmering with amusement.

"What?" I questioned, unraveling my body from Blake, although his arms remained linked behind my back.

"Nothing, just that you seem to be extra excited to see me today." He chuckled.

"Am I not supposed to be excited to see you?" I questioned.

Shaking his head Blake sighed, "no that's not what I meant. Just pretend I didn't say anything."

I looked at Blake a moment before dismounting and walking back over to the unpacked box.

"It looks great in here." Blake chuckled to himself, scanning over the multitude of clothes, posters, books and other necessities I've been packing away.

"Don't be sarcastic," I smirked, putting another folded shirt into the box.

Blake walked around me and plopped down on my bed. He looked a little tired today, his hair flopping in his eyes. Blake watched silently as I folded, his eyes following my movements.

"You need a hair cut." I commented, looking up through my lashes.

Blake reached up grabbing a strand of hair, "yeah you're right" he said frowning.

I stopped folding and looked up at Blake.

"Want to go on a walk?" I asked him.

Blakes eyes met mine and with a smile he nodded his head.

We walked down stairs, stopping by the door to slip on our shoes. The weather had started to chill but nothing too extreme.

We walked out the door, pulling it shut behind us. Hand in hand we walked down the sidewalk, cars passing occasionally. We mindlessly roamed and soon found ourselves on a familiar dirt path. I hadn't been to my hideout in awhile, and I relaxed knowing we would be there soon.

"I've missed this place," I whispered leaning into Blake, resting my head on his shoulder.

"Me too," he chuckled, turning his head to kiss the top of mine.

We stepped over the broken fence, marching our way through the over grown weeds and grass.

When we walked into the clearing I sighed. Everything seemed so at peace. The wind blew silently, shaking the yellowing leaves and the water rippled. Still hand in hand Blake and I sat down at the waters edge, slipping out shoes off and dipping our toes in the chilled water. A shiver ran down my spine so I leaned in to Blake's chest seeking warmth.

I looked up, Blake's eyes were crinkled and his cheeks drawn back in a smile. His smile was contagious as I too smiled. Putting his arm around me, Blake drew me closer. The thrumming of his heart beneath my ear, synced up with mine. Everything felt so perfect in that moment.

Before I knew what I was doing, I sucked in a breath before I spoke, "Blake?"

"Yeah?" He responded

"I- um.." the words seemed to get stuck in my throat.

I was about to break one of the biggest girl codes ever. But in that moment everything seemed to just leave my mind, it was only him and me and that was all that mattered. No fear of rejection, no small voice telling me to stop.

There are things in life that are worth being said but many people keep them bottled up. No one is promised tomorrow, whether it be yourself or a loved one. When they are gone, sometimes it's the things left unsaid that cause the most pain.

With a sigh I closed my eyes,

"I love you."

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Hey friends it's me. I've come out of hibernation. So many things have happened this year and so that's why I haven't written, but of course that is no excuse. I hope to write more over Christmas break but no promises.

This chapter is short and unedited but I hope it suffices in the meantime!

Love Kensey

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