Just Say It

Chapter 13~ Welcome Home

Oh brother

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I still couldn't get used to the idea that he was actually home. Logan sat at our kitchen table with a cup of coffee in his hands, his head hung low and his jaw kept clenching and unclenching. I closed my eyes and sucked in a sharp breath before fully entering the room closing the door behind me. Logan jumped at the sound and jerked his head towards me. A sad smile played on his lips when his eyes met mine which I returned.

We stayed silent for awhile just looking at each other. There was no way to describe how I felt in that moment.
Logan was here right now, before me, it was not a dream. I pinched myself just to make sure it was reality. I winced as the little pain spread throughout my skin. Yep this is real.

Logan's eyes widened a little shocked by my sudden action, but realizing that I was fine his eyes returned to their normal size and his true smile grew on his face.

"Hey squirt." he said almost in a whisper. His voice had gotten a lot lower since I had last seen him. I smiled back at him and crossed the kitchen to the refridgerator. Swinging the door open and sticking my head in. I could hear Logan chuckling.

Grabbing the milk carton and filling a glass with the milk I walked back to the table where Logan was sitting. Taking the seat across from him I sighed and made eye contact with Logan. I still hadn't said one word to him. But seriously what was I supposed to say?

"Aren't you gonna say anything?" He questioned, practically reading my mind. There are so many questions that immediately pop into my head that I have wanted to ask him for a long time. But there is one question in particular that I need to ask.

"Where have you been?" I said bluntly.

The smile on Logan's face faded a little at my question. He suddenly seemed nervous, his eyes traveled down to his mug of coffee again as he shook a hand through his hair.

"I- uhm, Im sorry..." Logan started, "I couldn't take dad anymore, I just, I don't know..." his voice drifted off.

"I don't care why you left, I want to know where you went." I crossed my arms across my chest getting tired of Logan beating around the bush. I couldn't help but glare at him.

Logan hesitated before answering. He must've known his answer would surely enrage me.

"I went to Georgia got a job, made enough money to start college like I was going to."

My mouth dropped open. All this time that was all he had been doing?

Working and going to college?

"So, what did you think? That me and Clayton could get along without you? That no one would miss you? Cause I can assure you couldnt have been anymore wrong." I sneered at him.

He flinched at my words and opened his mouth but quickley closed it. "Im so so sorry Stace.." He whispered.

I shook my head, "No. Im not done. After you left I started dating all of these guys, just trying to fill the pit in my stomach. Everyone of those guys was a jerk and treated me like crap. And after every break up I would go home and hope that you would be there to comfort me and make me laugh." I paused and took a breath, "But everytime I would walk through the door I realized I got my hopes up to high and that you werent coming back." I finished in a whisper.

Something cold traced my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. I hadnt even noticed that I had started crying. I looked up at logan waiting for is responce.

Pain. That was all I saw in his face. Tears also fell from his eyes. His lower lip trembled as he tried to hold back his own crying. His eyes werent a blue green color anymore. They were dulled and dark. His tounge ran across his teeth. He always did that when he was trying to think of something to say.