Forever and a Day - A K-Project Fan Fiction

Hating someone but you still want to be with her

Kusanagi suddenly left the pub after I just went in. Seriously, what’s going on with him? Totsuka just looked at me in shock without any other expression. He might have as well known the reason for that. I took my wide shirt, my black tank-top and my denim shorts from my bag and changed in the restrooms. When I went out, the bar was still in silence. I put my uniform in my bag and tied my hair in a ponytail. Okay, since I started dating Yusuke, Totsuka forced me to attend school already so I could spend some time with him.

“What’s wrong with him?”

“I don’t know but he seems to hate you since you told him the news”

Hate me since I told him the news? Was that the reason he never replies to my texts when I’m in Ashinaka? Or when he just walks out when I mention Yusuke’s name?

Kusanagi’s POV

Hana suddenly went in the pub still in her uniform. She never really knew about me being in love with her. To be honest, she’s really naïve; she never knows who’s in love with her or who isn’t. I stood up from my seat and went out the pub leaving her in confusion. Like what I said, she never knew about me being in love with her. She’s just too young for me to confess. I just wish she doesn’t invite Yusuke to her birthday; I’ll kill him if he does. My phone suddenly vibrated in my pocket revealing a new message from Hana. I sat down on the bench and read her message:

Why do you hate me? Is it that I’m dating Yusuke? Or is it something else? Please tell me so I wouldn’t be confused anymore.

How am I supposed to tell her I’m in love with her? She’ll hate me forever. It is really awkward; we already turned to best friends. Why do my feelings have to make me feel like this? When things go the way you wanted, feelings just go rushing into you making you feel uncomfortable around the person. My phone vibrated again flashing me back to reality. I opened the message and read through the written words:

C’mon Izumo, are you really keeping a secret from me? You already know I hate it when my best friends would keep secrets from me. Izumo, please tell me what’s going on with you? Don’t you trust me?

I exited the message and turned off my phone before putting it in my pocket.

“Are you really comfortable for keeping your feelings to Hana?”

I turned around and saw Mikoto standing by the tree holding a phone in his hand. I don’t know whether it’s his or Hana’s.

“You were talking to me, Izumo. What a great lie you’re making right now. You know I just borrowed her phone. Here, Yusuke’s been texting her many times saying too many things about love”

He sat down beside me before turning on the cigarette in his mouth.

“You can’t keep that for long, you have to confess to her anytime now”

“How can I? She’s taken. By a little brat named Yusuke”

“Why not find another one so you could move on?

I scoffed and pulled out a cigarette from my pocket.

“Are you sure that’s love? Do you actually even know what love means?”

I scoffed again and turned on the cigarette in my mouth.

“I’m not sure if I completely feel like what I think. But to me, love is…”

He looked at me like I was saying nonsense again.

“It’s when nothing goes the way you want. You’re not having fun and yet… You still want to be with her”