Trigger warning: R18, bloodplay, kinks
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The thick and sticky feeling was all I could feel as Nikolaj kissed me. For a moment, I blackened out. There were some memories that were poking into my mind, making me remember what happened that night on my sixteenth birthday. It was so, so long ago but the memories started to play in my mind as if it just happened last night. It didn't help that Nikolaj was caressing my body and I could feel the sticky and rough feeling as his blood started to dry out on my body.
My body trembled when I remembered how it felt with the man's blood on my hands before. Nagsimula na rin ako maghabol ng hininga pero nahihirapan akong kumuha ng hangin dahil patuloy pa rin akong hinahalikan ni Nikolaj. I was feeling light-headed, hot, bothered, and scared all at the same time. At mukhang nakahalata na si Nikolaj sa nangyayari sa akin dahil saglit s'yang napatigil, then he trailed light and feathery kisses on the way to my ears.
"Sshh..." His stubbles tickled my jaw and I actually purred. "Forget about anything, Xanthe. Just feel me."
But as he said that, his injured hand held my neck. Dumikit ang dugo n'ya sa balat ko as his fingers pressed to the sides, preventing me to breathe. I panicked. I was breathing through my mouth and nose as my vision began to blur.
"It's alright..." Nikolaj's voice was like a soft lullaby. Ibang-iba sa magulo kong isip. "Just think of me, Xanthe."
He tightened the grip on my neck momentarily bago n'ya niluwagan ang pagkakahawak n'ya. I sucked in a breath but then, I felt his other hand reached between us. His fingers trailed his way down and down until he reached that most sensitive part of me and I literally cried out.
"Think of me..." Nikolaj murmured. "Feel me."
I tried to push the memories out of my mind and just felt Nikolaj's fingers playing with my clit. Hindi naman ako nahirapan as Nikolaj's fingers were expertly doing their thing, making me forget of any other things. I was still trembling but this time, it was because of the lust and sensation that Nikolaj was giving me.
Hindi ko na napigilan ang ungol na kumawala sa mga labi ko nang diinan ni Nikolaj ang mga daliri n'ya roon. He chuckled, probably because he knew that he had succeeded by making me think of just only him. He tightened his fingers on the sides of my neck again before he kissed me, not giving me any time to recover my breath.
But still, I kissed him back. I liked kissing him. I liked when I was feeling that scar on his lips whenever I licked them or sucked them. Mas lalong nakakadagdag lang iyon sa sensasyong nararamdaman ko at hindi ko na napigilan ang mapayakap sa kanya at mas higitin pa s'ya palapit sa akin.
"Nikolaj..."
"Hmm?"
I groaned in frustration when he started slowly playing with my clit. I wanted more. I even moved my hips up, trying to feel more friction from his fingers.
"Easy..." Nikolaj teased.
But then, he indulged me by slipping one of his fingers inside my opening and I let out a moan as a relief. Napapikit ako at nang muling dumilat ay nakita ko ang mabigat na titig sa akin ni Nikolaj.
"Don't close your eyes," he said. His voice was commanding. "Just look at me."
And I did. When he pulled his finger and inserted it inside again, I was just looking at him even though the urge to close my eyes to savor the feeling was too strong. Especially when he started to rub my clit with the heel of his palm as he fingered me.
"Ah!"
I moaned. Halos hindi ko na makilala ang boses ko. It was so embarrassing to make those kinds of noises but it just felt so good. And Nikolaj knew what he was doing to me as he smirked down at me, feeling satisfied with my reaction.
