One way or another (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 19

Lexa POV

-Earth, present day-

I tried to talk to Clarke about the trait... Girl we caught with her in Mount Weather but she's so protective of her. I think there's something going on between them. And it makes me feel something I never felt before! I want to behead that girl! I almost did if Clarke hasn't shown up. Now I'm watching them get ready to leave to their camp and it feels like a goodbye. I can't let that happen...

These past few weeks made me attached to Clarke. To her wisdom, her strength and her love for her people. If the Arkers want to keep this alliance as much as I do, I need Clarke's knowledge to do it. We'll probably never have a perfect relationship neither will our people. But at least we'll try and we'll manage things through.

With those thoughts in mind I walk up to Clarke and stand between her and the horse I gave to her yesterday. It was my black horse. The one who saved me for past wars and kept me going when I thought it was not an option. This horse and I have been unseparable for 5 years now. And that's how much she means to me. I would give up my horse for her. I would give her the most loyal friend I ever had.

"Clarke of the Sky People, can I have a word?" my voice came out too soft.

"I have nothing to say to you." she answered angrily. Those words felt like a dagger piercing through my heart. And I was forced to feel that fisically not too long ago. But somehow this felt worse... It managed to be more painful than the actual dagger.

"Then just listen." I managed to say in all my weakness. She looked at me and I managed to understand she was avaluating the situation. She then looked at me and made a signal with her head that I assumed meant to follow her. And I did... We stopped not too far from camp but in a place they could not see us.

"Speak." She demanded. Even though I don't like her tone, I knew inside me that it was not the time nor place to talk to her about it. And gor the first time in so long I allowed myself to feel everything again.

"I don't know what ypu are used too..." I started and the confused look on her face told me she did not understand what I was talking about. "The words you use to describe some thing are not used that much here. I don't know what they mean... I don't know your ways." I stopped for a while to see if she understood what I was saying. "But I want to understand. I want to know your people, the way you think, the way you talk, the way you do things. If this alliance is to continue I need to understand your ways, your traditions. Nuy mostly, I need to know you. Even if some of your people don't want to admit it, most of them see you as a leader. They trust your judgement and the lean on your knowledge and wisdom. But I want to know you as more than their leader... I want to know you as a human, as Clarke. I don't want you to leave. I want to be near you as much as I possibly can. Please don't leave... I need you Clarke of the Sky People. More than I ever needed anyone." I let the words come out in a way I couldn't remember being able to do. I showed her the side of me no one else knew, not even Costia.

"Clarke!" A voice I recognize as the woman who calls herself Chanceller was heard.

"I'll be back in two days? I promise!" With that she took a step in my direction, placed her right hand above my heart and kissed me softly right beside my mouth. "We'll talk then." She turned aroud and left.

I could see them leaving. Her blond hair was the only presenI was looking at. The wind was blowing and it made her scent gets to my nose. Somehow it makes me calm.

And now I guess my only option is to wait.

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