Harry's Rose (3 books in one)

Chapter 38

Dad and I make it back to uncle Louis's house and I go straight up to the room I'm sleeping in. I don't even bother to look at uncle Louis who's sitting on the living room couch with a beer. Once I reach the guest room I pause because dad and uncle Louis are talking about me.

"Is everything alright mate" Louis says

"No. She lost my granddaughter" Dad says

"Oh I'm so sorry. come here" Uncle Louis says

I don't know what happened after that but I slowly closed the bedroom door behind me so they wouldn't hear I was listening. I slowly walk over to the bed and slide into it. I pick my phone up and delete the photo of me holding my baby bump by our pool.

I never picked out a name for my little girl but I would have liked to give her one. I've always liked the name Tessa. Yeah that probably would have been her name. I was very convinced she was going to look like me instead of her rapist of a dad that everyone loves. Suddently my phone starts dinging again. I pick it up to see it's Lilly.

Lilly

Hey slut how's my soon to be daughter doing- L

Can't wait to take her form you and raise her as my own with Charlie- L

Yeah we have decided to start dating. He is my step brother after all and he's having a kid so it's going to be mine- L

You'll have no part in raising our daughter of course. Your just a surrogate for us- L

JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP LILLY BECAUSE OF ALL YOU GUYS DID THERE IS NO CHILD ANYMORE- M

That's when I snapped. I didn't bother to explain why. She doesn't deserve an explanation. I just need them to leave me alone and hope that I can get through all of this. Not having my little girl is very devastating.

As I'm thinking I fumble around with my phone case. A blade ends up falling out. I completely forgot I had these in here. I pick the blade up that fell on the bed sheets in front of me. I pull my sleeve up and place the blade to my left wrist. I end up making more cuts than I wanted but it helped with my emotional pain a little bit. I needed a release and that what I'm going to get. I place the blade to my thigh and made some more. I basically covered both my thighs in cuts.

Should I make more on my arms? No I should wait and leave some space on my arms for when I need a release again. I put the blade back into my phone case and place it on the night table beside me. I roll over on my other side grunting in pain as I press on some of my cuts.