Chapter 17: Doubt

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"We probably won't even last," I think to myself while laying in bed.
"It has been a couple of months since he left. I don't know how much longer I can make it. Everyday, I get to this low point and just want to cry. Why the hell did I fall for him? Why do I have to love him so much? Why does he have to mean so much to me already? All these questions that not even I can answer. We were so perfect at one time, then I screw up and now I feel like he hates me. I feel like we changed. I mean yea we still talk and have a couple laughs. But nothing is what it used to be. He's gone and there is nothing I can do about it. He is distanced from me and the only way we communicate is through phone. We barely see each other. Maybe once every 2-3 months. Am I crazy? I have done this long distance relationship before but it didn't work out. What if that happens to me and Terrell?! I don't want it to! What if he finds a prettier girl who is skinnier than me? What if HE feels that we are too far apart and can't take it? What if the distance is to much for him? I can't stand that thought.He is my everything. Already? Ugh shut up Bre. He means alot to you and you love him. Stop questioning your love for him. I will NEVER doubt my love for Terrell. That is one thing I am positive of..."

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