A Tale of Two Ends

Chapter 9: Confessions

Why do I keep screwing up? Why can't I be a good girl? Why did I make that decision.
Again... All this guilt is eating me alive. How am I supposed to tell Terrell I gave some other boy a lapdance? How can I tell him that I am an unloyal whore who can't stop messing up the relationship?
I'm sitting on my bed, the phone is ringing. He answers and I again tell him the whole story. This reaction wasn't like the last though.
"How do you let the same boy blackmail you? What is so wrong with telling your parents about me?" He goes on and on with the questions. He asks me to tell the story again. He is confused by it. Does he think I'm lying? I answer all his questions. His cousin gets on the phone... He starts asking questions and the whole time all I can feel is the guilt piling onto me.
"Do you know how much Terrell loves you? He talks about you all the time...." Now the tears and sobs are coming out. His cousin continues, "I don't know what he is going to do. That was really messed up." That is the last thing I hear from him as Terrell gets the phone back.
"Breonna, I don't know what to say." He starts.
"I know bae. I'm really sorry. I messed up and I promise it will never happen again. Please..."
*Silence*
He sighs. "It's over." I hear those words. Those torcherous words come out of his mouth. I was dreading them from the beginning and now he has said it. I look up and realize my 2 nieces are standing, listening. I literally throw the phone, grab my bear, and run into the bathroom.
"NOOO!!! No, no, no" was all I could say. I couldn't form anything else with my loud and sudden pangs and sobs. Tears were flowing. My face was bright red. I stand up and look at myself in the mirror and I'm disgusted with what I see....