Something, Nothing

CHAPTER 27

a/n: happy valentines, loveliessss 💞💞💞 

so this is a scheduled chapter (as im writing this - it's 12th jan) and as of now i'm very much single. but there is someone i'm interested in. it's been yearsssss since i've actually liked someone, so let's see how this goes. i dont have much hope yet (me knowing me 😂😂) but let's see heehehe (if there's no change to this note by the time this is published you know nothing happened 😣

what do you guys have planned for valentines?!?!? anything exciting

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CHAPTER 27 — COMING OUT

"Jomar, can you sit for a minute?"

I am going to tell him, I've decided. I decided this the previous night actually especially after seeing how it didn't have to be a big deal. Sri was cool with it — maybe it was because he is queer as well, but he still is cool with it. I realised that I want to be surrounded by people who are okay with who I am. It's not as easy being myself back home but here I have a choice. I want to make the best out of that.

Jomar squints his eyes at me doubtfully, "Why?"

"Just sit, please. There's something I have to tell you,"

"Ooh, sounds very serious," and then probably after noticing my face, "Oh, it is serious,"

I give him a small nod, "Will you sit?"

"Okay," he sits on his bed, "What is it, man? You okay? Are you in trouble or something?"

"What trouble would I be in?" I momentarily distract myself from what I'm actually supposed to be telling him.

"I don't know. You tell me. You are the one who's sounding so serious now,"

"Does that automatically mean I have to be in trouble?"

"Well, are you?"

"No,"

"Good, that's settled then," he stands up, clasping his hands together, "Come on, let's go,"

"Wait, no. I haven't told you what I wanted to tell you,"

"Right, right," he sits back and then gestures at me, "Sorry, go on,"

"I just wanted to tell you this because I think of you as a good friend to me," I quickly put up my hand as soon as I see his mouth start to move because I know I won't get to tell him what I wanted to otherwise, "Let me finish first, okay," I take in a breath.

Whatever happens it's for the best, I remind myself and then looking at him straight in the eye, I tell him, "I'm gay,"

He doesn't say anything, so I just lift my eyebrows at him and then he speaks.

Just a single word, "Okay?"

"That's it," I raise my shoulders.

"That's what you wanted to tell me,"

I nod at him.

He facepalms himself, "I honestly thought it was something big," he mumbles.

"So, you're okay?"

He stands up, comes towards me and slaps the back of my head, "Who do you think I am? Now, come on before we're late," and he walks away.

I smile and shake my head to myself, following after him.

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Jomar pokes my arm during the lecture and doesn't stop until I ask him, "What?"

"Was it something big for you?" he asks out of nowhere.