Beyond Boundaries • A KNJ Fanfiction

34.

"you're not an option to choose, Yn"

I froze, his words sinking deep into my chest.

"What do you mean?" I whispered, my voice shaky, unsure if I really wanted to hear the answer.

He stepped even closer, his presence overwhelming, like everything else around us faded away.

"You’re not an option to choose, Yn," he repeated, his voice steady, yet filled with something I couldn’t name. "I don’t want anyone else. It’s you. Just you."

My heart pounded in my chest, the air between us thick with tension. I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think. I wanted to pull away, to find some logical explanation for this moment, but his words, his gaze, were pulling me in deeper.

"Why?" I asked again, my voice barely a whisper, as if I couldn’t believe what he was saying. "I don’t understand. You’re... you're my best friend's father. You’re supposed to be off-limits." My mind raced, searching for any reason, any way to escape this feeling that was growing inside me.

His eyes softened, his hand reaching up to gently cup my cheek

"I know it’s complicated. And I know it’s wrong in so many ways, but I can’t help it, Yn." He paused, his thumb tracing my lower lip. "I want you."

I swallowed hard, my pulse racing, unable to tear my gaze away from him. Everything inside me screamed to stop, but it felt like the truth was finally being laid bare, and I had no idea how to react to it.

"you want me? What do you mean?"

"I mean, I want you for myself...For me...As mine...I wanna love you, protect you, And do everything for you, no matter how dangerous it is....I will do anything for your happiness... anything...just name It...."

"What about Jungkook??" My voice was weak.

"I don't know... I don't know anything....I just know, I can't stand the thought of you with someone else"

"You're too old for m—"

"I know...do you think I'm not aware of that? You're too young, and I am Older enough to be your dad..But I can't stop thinking about you, Yn....just can't back off from my feelings. I was lying to myself for a long time now, but not anymore."

"But Namjoon, You are Jungkook's father, the Jungkook who is my bestfriend and He likes me"

"And? Do you? You said you don't "

"I don't but Jungkook will be hurt"

"And Do you think I am having fun Knowing that he'll get hurt? No! I feel terrible...I know this will hurt him but what to do? I SACRIFICED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THE RESPONSIBILITIES I'VE TAKEN"

he burst out when I was blank...I didn't know what was that. What responsibility? Jungkook's? Is he regretting??

No, he is a great father..he can't.

"What do you mean Namjoon?"

"Nothing... come, eat dinner first" he made me sit down and sit infront of me with the tray of food..."know, I am not regretting the responsibilities of Jungkook...I love him..he is my son, I raised him with my everything and It is true I sacrificed many things for him."

He put the spoon near my mouth

"I'll eat, you can lea—"

"Shh" he sushed me and started feeding me.
I couldn't help but feeling zoo into my stomach. I can feel his feelings ain't just physical, It ain't Just For show but something with depth..

As Namjoon fed me, I couldn’t bring myself to look at him. My mind swirled with his words, his outburst, and the way his hands trembled slightly as he held the spoon. He was so composed, so calm most of the time, but tonight he was unguarded, vulnerable in a way that both terrified and softened me.