Solar X Ruin<3

Chapter 18- Insecurites

TRIGGER WARNINGS!
SH
Suicide mentions
Anorexia!

The next day, our mechanic felt heavily insecure. Especially about his body and weight. It was evident that Solar was neglecting his physical health. He had become obsessed with maintaining his weight, which had reached dangerously low levels. His skin was pale and sallow, and his body had grown frail and weak. Every time he looked in the mirror, he saw a version of himself that he hated, fueling his destructive behavior even further.

As the days went by, Solar's actions became more drastic. He began to purge after every meal, his body rejecting the sustenance he desperately needed. He would often spend hours locked in the bathroom, retching and sobbing, his fingers down his throat in a desperate attempt to control his weight.

Scars littered his arms and thighs, a painful reminder of the harm he was inflicting upon himself. The guilt weighed heavily on his conscience, but the distorted voice in his head told him he deserved it all. He had to be punished for being imperfect, for not being enough.

In the midst of this turmoil, Solar's loved ones became increasingly worried about his well-being. They watched helplessly as he withered away, too stubborn and ashamed to seek help or admit that he needed it.

Ruin had noticed this, he was filled with worry. He walks to their locked bedroom door, knocking.

"Solar? My love, have you gone back to sleep?"

"no" he responded weakly,

"Can I come in?'

" N-No!" He coughs.

"You sound worried, my star"

"I'm not-" he coughs again.

"I'm coming in" Ruin picked the lock.

"W-Wait, Don't-"

The door unlocks. Ruin gasped, seeing his dear boyfriend on the floor, razor in hand. Blood dripping down his arms and stomach.

"Oh- Oh my god! Solar! What- w-why? When!?"

"I-I'm sorry! I'm sorry...I'm sorry"

"No, no. Don't apologize, we'll get you bandaged up"

Ruin grabs the first aid kit under the sink. Grabbing the bandages.

"Solar"

Solar looks up, teary-eyed from the sting of the deep cuts along his torso and stomach. Ruin wipes his tears with his thumb.

"Why? Why did you- did something happen?"

Solar's silent.

"Also, I noticed you haven't been eating"

Solar looks up, he had this problem before, he struggled with anorexia.

"Has it- has it come back? Your anorexia?"

"yeah"

"Why didn't you tell me? I would've helped, you know"

"I was scared you'd be mad"

"My love, I could never. Now, my love, give me your arms. I'll bandage them up, I'll be careful, promise"

"Mkay"

As Ruin bandaged up Solar's bloody wrists, Solar looked outside blankly

KNOCK KNOCK

"Who's there?" Solar asks.

"Dad?"

"Jack? Why are you awake. It's late"

"I was worried. I heard crying"

"It's nothing, buddy. Go to sleep"

"Can I come in?"

Solar hesitates.

"One second, kiddo"

"Solar, my love, you can talk to me. You're going back to Earth's therapy sessions"

That night ended with Ruin and Solar cuddling with Jack in the middle :)

A/N: Y'ALL ARE FINALLY GETTING FED