Why Do You Hate Me?

18. I Miss Them

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Two days go by and Sunoo still hasn't returned to the dorm. The members are realy stressed and scared.

It's curently 4pm and all of them are in their rooms.

Sunghoon's POV

I'm lying on my bed when sudenly I feel thirsty. I'm realy weak beacouse I haven't eaten for almost 4 days.

I get up and go to the kitchen. On my way there I see Sunoo's room.

Where is he? Is he okay?  I ask myself.

I realy wonder where he went. Maybe I shoudn't have been so cold towards him. Maybe I should've tried harder to find a diferent solution on how to cope with these "feelings".

I go to Sunoo's door and open it. I walk into his room and look around. I can't even remember the last time I was in here.

This emptyness I'm feeling is so weird. Ever since Sunoo left I've been feeling worse and worse. I tried to push him away before but now that he's gone it's torture.

What if he ended it all? What if he gave up life? What if I'll never see him again? I doubt that he wants to see me again.

As I'm looking around the room I notice a clear plasti bag in the trash bin. I come closer and notice that it's some clothes.

I decide to take it out. As I unfold it I realize that It's our outfit from I-land. Why did he throw such memory out?

I look around the room again and notice some things mising. like his charger, vitamins he was keeping next to his bed, most of his clothes and even toileteries.

"Did he........move out?" I ask myself. It looks like he just packed and left and that......he's not coming back......

I go back to my room and sit down on my bed. My hands are shaking. What have I done.

End of POV

Sunoo's POV (also at 4pm)

I've beem living here for almost 3 days now. It's not as bad as I tought it would be. Even though it's small it feels realy cozy.

I got close with Charlotte. We hang out everyday. I'm glad she doesn't know that I'm from Enhypen, that she doesn't know who I am.

I have to admit I realy miss my members. I wonder what are they doing. Are they looking for me? Did our boss tell them the truth?

There is one person I don't miss though. Or actualy.......I'm lying, I do miss him. I miss him so fucking much. But I don't miss the "him" he was when I left. I miss the "him" he was before, when we were close and happy. I still wonder what happened, why did he sudenly started hating me. 

I'm curently lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Sudenly the bell rings. I get up and open the door.

"Hi Charlotte." I say. "Hi Sunoo." she says as she hugs me. I hug her back.

"How are you?" she asks as we sit down at my couch.

"Well, I've been beter but it's not that bad." I say.

"You know I realy don't believe that you moved here to run away from the city." she sudenly says.

"Why?" I ask wondering what does she mean.

"I don't know but you always look a bit.....sad. It's like something hurt you and you ran away from it." she says in a worried tone.

"Actualy your right. I am realy hurt." I admit it.

Charlotte sights, "Was it a person?".

I nod. I'm not sure why I'm sudenly opening up to her but it feels kinda comforting.

"It was a loved one right? You were close with that someone right?" she says.

"How did you know?" I ask.

"I was studying to be a therapist so I can tell when somebodys not okay and why." she says.

"I see." I'm kinda suprised beacouse she doesn't look like the smartest or most understanding person.

"Do you want to talk about it?" she asks.

"Actualy, I kinda do." I answer.

She nods and starts listening carefully.

"Well its this guy who I used to be realy close with. We were like brothers. But sudenly he just started ignoring me an hating me. I still don't know why." I spill the truth.

"That made you move here, away from him?" she questions.

"Well yes but that isn't the only reason. I can't tell you more thought...." How I would love to spill the whole truth but I can't for now. I need to keep the fact that I was an idol undre cover.

"It's okay, I don't need to know more. I guess you just want to forget about it and him." she says understandibly. (idk if thats even a word)

I nod, "Yep. I don't even want to think about it anymore."

"Then let's do something fun. It's the bets way to forget about things." she takes out a card game out of her bag.

"Do you know how to play this?" she asks.

"No" I shake my head.

"Then let me explain it." she starts explaining the rules slowly so that I would understand.

"I think I get it." I say. Then we start playing. It was kinda easy and fun game.

We played it for a long time. We laughed and ate some snacks. We had a good time.

I love how I actualy forgot about everything. Thank you Charlotte.

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