Mr. Tomlinson (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 36

"Everybody out!" The doctors shouts at us. I can't physically move, I can't leave Gemma. The doctor pulls me out of my seat and pushes me out of the room.

"There going to do the best they can" Louis tells me, although I know there is no hope for her to survive.

I take a seat next to Jake and wait. Waiting seems to be the only thing that I do, it seems to be the only thing that happens.

It takes another 20 minutes of waiting until a doctor come out to see us "I'm affraid, that she had a mini stroke. But we have managed to stabilise her again. Although if this happens again it could kill her. She is in a very critical position at the moment Mr. Styles" the doctor says looking at his notes on his clip board.

"Thank you..." Louis waits for his name

"Dr. Inman" Doctor Inman says smiling

"Thanks Dr. Inman" Louis smiles in return

*4 weeks later*

Over the last couple of days I've had to go in to the hospital to consider what's best for Gemma. As she is still in a critical condition and because she hasn't breathed by herself when they took her off life support. The doctors say that if she does wake up she could have a problem with her brain and she may not have any control over her body because of the injuries she has suffers from the car accident.

"In my opinion I think that it is best for her, if life support is switched off" one of the doctors says

"She's my sister though" I cry, my heart stops beating as he pain that goes through my chest hurts so much

"Mr. Styles leaving her like this for any longer is just prolonging her life, it is safe to say that she will never wake again" Doctor Inman looks at me

"What you saying?" I ask him

"The decision is up to you. But leaving her on life support isn't doing her any favours. Yes she's breathing but that's only because the machine is helping her. She can't stay on it forever. But like I say when you are ready for it to be turned off" Doctor Inman looks at his notes "she's already suffers two mini strokes" he taps on his notes

"Just one more day with her, I just need one more day with her" I tell him and he nods accepting my decision

*Gemma's p.o.v*

I'm in a white room wearing a white dress, where the hell am I? "Gemma darling!" Mum shouts from behind me

"Where are we?" I ask her in confusion. I've never been anywhere with this much white before

"You are half way to heaven" mum tells me. Half way to what? Heaven... I'm dying?

"I'm dying?" I ask her and she laughs at me

"Of corse you are. But it's your choice whether you stay or come with me" mum tells me

"W-where's Harry?" I ask her

"He's watching over you body right now, see" She says pointing to a screen on the wall showing Harry crying over me. He's got Mr. Tomlinson with him? He's holding Harry's hand, stroking it with his thumb

"What's he doing with him?" I ask mum and she shrugs her shoulders

"I heard Harry tell you that Louis and Jake have been good to him recently, I guess he's been staying at there house" mum tells me "listen he's about to speek"

"The doctors say there's no way that you are g-going t-to pull t-through. I don't know if you can hear me, b-but I I-know you Gem. I-I know y-your a f-fighter. They say that t-tomorrow w-we have to..." Harry cries and Louis rubs his back telling him it's okay "t-turn t-the machine o-off" Harry sobs putting his head in his hands only to be pulled into Louis chest. Louis then kisses his forehead telling him it's only for the best and that it's only making me worse keeping me on the machine.

"Is it true?" I ask mum and she squints her eyes at me "that I'm not going to pull through?"

"Like I said. It's up to you Gem. But you have until tomorrow to decide what you want or the decision would have been made for you already" mum tells me "but one thing you might want to know is. If you decide to live, your life will be different and not for the best"

"What do you mean?" I ask

"You shall be paralysed from the waist down" mum tells me

I look back to the screen, Harry's still crying, how could I leave him? I really hate seeing him cry, he's supposed to be happy, he's the one that makes my day that little much brighter.

I look back to my mum. How could I leave her? She's always been there for me, without her everything will change. She's the only person that I share everything with. She's my mum, but Harry's my brother.

If I do decide to live I could be in pain. I've got to put myself first. I don't know if I could live with having someone do everything for me, I like my independence. I like to do things my way and for that reason it makes it harder for me to choose whether I should stay or go with my mum.

If I stay I could learn to live with it, although I may find it hard. But if I go I wouldn't have to live with the pain, but I'd be leaving my brother.

I've always been bad for making decisions. I just wish that there was a better way to decided whether I should stay or go. Because which ever one I'll pick I'll either regret it or I'll choose right. But knowing me I'll regret it. I guess I've got to think and think fast or it could be too late.