Bts ff || mafia stepbrothers ||

Part 97

Recap

"Father killed my love, and you know whose hands it was done by—by the hands of the one who created another identity of mine and gave it the name of his own beloved mother."

"I’ve been with eomma since that day, and at that time, I was about to turn 15. And you already know what happened after that, right, appa?

"Here ends my story, my past. I have shared everything I endured during those days with you, appa."

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"My love, the story of your past is still unfinished. My princess, you haven't revealed what your eyes are trying to say, what your voice is unable to express. There's still so much hidden in those eyes, so much that they have seen. Let go of all the secrets, my love, don't hold anything back in your heart today."

"Appa, you're hiding too, you too are a mystery, a puzzle waiting to be solved. So many unspoken words, your eyes hold a deep sadness, a longing to unburden your heart. There are so many emotions you've kept hidden. The weight of your secrets is crushing you, yet you remain silent, hiding the truth from me, from yourself.”

Yn pauses, but Mr. Kim says nothing.

"Appa, do you see that moon?"

Mr. Kim looks at the moon.

“You know, when I look at the moon, I feel a deep sense of peace; it makes me feel so light. I forget all my pain, sorrow, and troubles. I feel a connection with the moon, appa. That's why, on a full moon night, when the moon is shining brightly, I end up pouring my heart out to whoever asks me anything at that moment.”

“Why is that, love?”

“I see my love on the moon. When I look at the full moon, I see his face, appa. It feels like I'm talking to him, telling him everything, and he's listening, giving me strength, and calming me down.”

“I can't live without him, appa, but I can't go to him either. I'm left with nothing, appa. I'm distant from everything, everywhere.”

“Do you know one thing, love?”

“What it is, appa”

“He didn’t leave you. Even today, he is with you. The peace you find when you look at the moon, the way it soothes you and makes all your problems fade away, that’s him. He’s still with you, guiding you and protecting you, making sure you don’t lose hope. He’s still your shield and your guide.”

Yn looked at Mr. Kim and said, “But he’s not with me, appa not beside me not at all and I can’t neglect this, I felt that appa I felt that his emptiness in my heart in my soul, I felt everything but, b-but appa I did not feel him near me anymore and is suffocating me, appa did you have an answer for this?”

Mr. Kim, seeing that yn is looking at him to continue, takes a deep breath and starts to speak gently.

"Yes, he might not be physically present, but his presence is felt in many ways. The calm you find when you look at the moon, that peace and comfort, it’s his way of being with you. He’s still guiding you, supporting you, and protecting you, even if it’s not in the way you might have hoped. His influence is in the strength you feel, the courage you have, and the love that continues to surround you."

“One more thing love”

"You are expressing what he knows and understands, but not what only you know. Love, you are not sharing what only you feel, not any identity of yours, only just you, my darling. Princess the pain you've endured, which you've never shared with anyone, which that pain you still haven’t forgotten, the pain that you’re still bearing, and that which you continue to suffer from—it's the pain for which you're undergoing treatments, taking injections, and even receiving electric shocks. The pain that causes your periods to continue, the pain that makes you distance yourself from happiness to protect everyone else. It's the same pain you're bearing because you haven't confronted the one who took everything from you. You're living with the mother whose actions led you to this suffering, the only witness to this is you all alone."