goner//c.h.

chapter 10

"i still feel really bad." calum kept saying as he rubbed my arm as i was hugging him.

"really, it's fine." i said. "the thing that really happened was i was at a carnival when i was 10 and a clown guy kidnapped me.

well, not as a clown but i knew it was the same guy as the clown. he kidnapped another girl before too, ivy." i said softly.

we are best friends, but she moved two years ago and it's never really been the same.

she was friends with michael, luke, and ashton too. we were all inseparable.

she was like my rose, always there for my girl problems, always there if i needed a shoulder to cry on, and always there to share my great memories with.

i was sad when she moved, but it was for the better. she ended up moving because of the fact that her parents got a divorce.

it was an unhappy marriage in the first place so it was better that way. she knew it was coming so she wasn't that saddened about it.

she moved to new york with her mother while her father lives in michigan.

"we were best friends after that. i don't know if it was just easier to get friends at 10 but we just instantly connected.

she made me really happy and she always was there for me, so she's just like you." i chuckled looking into his beautiful eyes.

he rubbed small circles on my back as i looked deeper into his eyes.

he leaned in again towards me and i really needed something to comfort me and i knew he was the only one who could do that right now.

our lips connected and moved perfectly in sync with each other as i wrapped my arms around his neck.

his arms were wrapped around my waist and made me feel protected.

as we finished the kiss i hugged him some more.

i swear he gives the best hugs.

he laid down on his bed and i laid next to him putting my head on his chest.

"i love the sound of your heartbeats." i whispered.

i rolled over so i was on top of him and could look right at his face.

"and your face is really squishy which is so cute." i laughed as i playfully smacked his cheeks.

"well, your smile is the cutest thing ever."

him complimenting me made me feel really insecure for some reason.

i stopped smiling just sitting there with a blank face.

"keep smiling babe its so cute!" he kept saying trying to make me smile.

"i guess i have to-" and then i was caught off by uncontrollable laughter from him tickling me.

"fuck!" i yelled laughing so hard.

"hey, don't swear!" he yelled back laughing too.

"fuck you!" i laughed even more finally getting out of his grasp.

"fuck me." he smirked.

"fuck no." i replied chuckling.

"you think this is funny?" he tried saying with a straight face but smiled.

"um, yeah."

"guess what else is funny."

"what."

"this."

he picked me up and slung me over his shoulder.

he ran down the stairs and dropped me on the couch.

"now we will cuddle." he said sweetly.

"and what if i don't want to."

"that's too bad that you are." he said as he snuggled into my boob.

"this makes a nice pillow." he said as his head rested on it.

i took my phone out and looked on the usual, instagram, twitter, tumblr.

calum took my phone and took a photo of the two of us.

he was smiling and i had my tongue out in the pic.

he mumbled some small words before posting it.

i looked at the caption,

"i love u bitch"

"wow, so heartfelt." i said jokingly with a straight face.

"i know i know." he said as he yawned.

"your tired?" i asked.

"yeah, really tired."

"good because i am too." i said before shutting my eyes and him falling asleep on me.
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ughh im so tired rn but i'm in a cuddly mood. i was thinking that i might just do this book to like 15 chapters and more of a short story bc i don't want to drag this out more then it has to be sooo idk :)