Broken

Part 49

YUQI POV:

It's an interesting feeling when you see everyone around you getting better, but you just can't. No matter how much therapy, how much meditation- you're helpless.

Each day you feel less human, more just a body walking around will no idea where you're going.

You rely on other people to help you when in reality they're lost too.

You say you want to go somewhere but they say "No, you can't go there- it's dangerous my love." But if I was truly your love, you'd let me live.

LET. ME. LIVE.

Would everything have been different if I didn't ask my parents for help? If they remembered they have a daughter. I'm not supposed to be here. I'm not crazy. I'm not crazy. I'm not crazy.

Everyone else here is practically brain dead, they can't handle that truth so no one ever says it.

I watch as my best friend slips away from me, he's living his best life. I just have to watch, I can't join him.

I wish things were different, I wish I was just a normal woman. I wish I worked as a music teacher at a school, I wish I could dress up, wear makeup. But no. I can't.

I got out of bed after writing in my diary, Soyeon unnie has been making me write journal entries to get my anger out. It doesn't help.

I walk down the stairs to grab some breakfast. I always am expecting to see Changbin, to talk to him. But he's gone, again. Forever.

I grab some fruit and a glass of water. Soyeon gives me my medications. They usually help me feel alive, but now I feel numb.

It's not like I'd ever tell her this, that would take me years away from getting out. It's not like I wasn't to escape Soyeon, I love her.

She's my Dahlia, my flower, my everything. But to her, I'm just a patient who she has to love so I feel a little normal.

"Hey love, how did you sleep?" Soyeon asks, rubbing my back. "I slept good, thank you for asking." I give her a small smile which she thinks is good enough. She pulls out her laptop and starts working.

I curl up next to her and put on a show, well it's not just 'a show' it's our show. Me, Jeongin, Changbin, and Soojin to be exact. It was ours before it was stripped away. Now it's just me and Jeongin.

Well it's practically just me. Jeongin has been in and out, he doesn't come too often anymore. He's also free. I don't know why he comes back, maybe for Seungmin.

Once the show is over, well it's been over for a while. I rewatch the last episode over and over. I get up to put away my dishes.

I look outside to see Felix making Hyunjin a flower crown, that kid at least is staying here with me.

All of the crazy's aren't my friends, but they'll have to be soon enough. It's like talking to the weird kids at school because your best friends are in a different class.

I decide to walk around until I find something to do. Eventually I see Lia sitting by herself, so I join her.

"Hi Lia." I say softly, "Hey." She answers back. Lia isn't much of a talker, but I am. So our conversations end with short answers with no meaning.

"What are you doing today?" I ask, "Nothing." She answers.

I internally rip my eyes out, she's a pain in the ass to talk to. "Want to do something? Paint together, make bracelets, braid eachothers hair?" I ask.

"No." She says.

I get up and walk away, she's useless. Completely useless.

I head upstairs to see Riki who is building something with legos. I sit next to him to see if I can join him. "Just go." He says with his deep voice.

I nod and get up, Changbin was really the only person who didn't find me annoying... but he's gone. He left me. That bastard left me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad he's happy... but he's happy without me, and that is a different kind of pain.

Instead of trying again, I go to my room and I fall back asleep. When I'm dreaming, I can be happy.

Questions:

GIANT or ALL IN?

Dahlia or Queencard?

Moon struck or XO?

Ice on my teeth or WORK?

A/N!

Hello everyone! I'm really sorry for having a late update, I've been really busy. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, tell me what you think as always. Broken will be coming to an end and I just want to say I've appreciated all of you! Please support my other stories like IHWM. See you guys soon😚

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