Secret Admirer (cake)

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The reply letter on Tuesday was nice.

Dear luke,

Hello again. I'm glad you like them. I tried to get pretty ones. And its not that hard making them thornless. But okay. You're welcome.

Im sorry you feel like you dont have a reason to smile. I'm so sorry.

And i kind of wish you knew who I am. But at the same time I don't. Because we talk. Usually. And I don't wanna lose you as a friend. I dont think there's any chance you like me back.

And I'm not gonna tell anyone about you and Calum. Thanks for sharing though. I was wondering...

Anyway, 20 days until prom. Are you going? Probably. You're perfect. I'll be sitting on my couch eating food thinking about you. Sorry if that's creepy. Its true though.

Luke im in love with you. I love you so much. Everything about you.

I'm here for you babe

-your secret admirer xx

It made me smile but I was also concerned.

He couldn't love me. No way.

I didn't want him to. I didn't want him getting hurt. Especially by me. He didn't deserve it. He was so sweet and amazing and the fact that he'd be home on prom was heartbreaking. He didn't deserve that.

I sighed before carefully writing a response.

Hey

I'm not going to prom. But tell me who you are. Please? I won't hate you I promise.

And are you sure you love me? I don't wanna hurt you. You're too sweet. And nice and amazing. Which is why you shouldn't be home for prom. If we usually talk... Theres only a few people i usually talk to. My best friends and a few other people. I have a huge crush on one of them.

And thanks anyway, no matter how much effort it takes. Its not your fault i don't smile. Its mine. But these letters and things make me smile. They make me feel.wanted.

Please tell me who you are.

-luke xx

I smiled and was reviewing it when my phone started ringing. Michael.

Ugh. "Hello?" I asked. "Where are you?" He asked. "Um, I'm my bedroom" I answered, confused.

"Why?" He asked. "Um, because I have no life" I told him, even more confused. "Well you were supposed to be at band practice 20 fucking minutes ago." He complained. Fuck.

"Michael, I'm so sorry. I forgot." I said, getting up. "You shouldn't forget stuff like that" he sounded annoyed. "Im sorry" I apologized, grabbing my keys.

"Its fine. Just don't do it again." He told me. I sighed. "I won't." I answered. "Promise?" He asked. "Promise" I repeated. "Im on my way" i added
"Yaaayyyy" he cheered, making me smile a little. "See you soon Lucas" he said before hanging up. "See you soon " I mumbled, putting my phone down and starting  the car.

Band practice. With Ash and Michael and Calum.

Greaaatt.