Patience & Love (title change: Breaking the Nerd)

Chapter One: Welcome to Our Life

You do not have to read "Love is Blind" to understand this. However, it would be highly recommended that you did so you have a better understanding of the parents.

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Breaking the Nerd

Chapter One

Abella's POV

As I stare down at my scuffed up Vans, my long blonde hair falls in my face. I clench my books to my chest making my way through the silent library to my corner, where I sit down onto the floor. Retrieving my bag lunch I drawl my knees up and release a sigh and begin to eat my lunch in peace.

Suddenly I hear footsteps and I begin to tremble and sweat as the sound of the feet near me.  Ugh. I hate myself. Why do I have this issue? Why does every noise and sound bother me. Knowing my body, I know what's coming and soon my hands clench my head in pain as fear seeps through my body. Suddenly a tall, muscular, blonde boy appears in front of me.

Fire feed my face as sweat continues to trinkle out of my skin. The throbbing in my head intensifies, my heart beat accelerates and fear consumes my body. The boy's critical blue eyes stare deeply at me judging every flaw and imperfection on my body.

"Hey, what's up?" the kid questions me raising one of his eyebrows. My body is so tense that I cannot even move or speak.

The sweat is seeping through my clothing and my head hurts. Nausea overwhelmed me and the urge to puke intensified. Why is he looking at me like that? The blush is burning my cheeks.

He looks at me like I am crazy and disappears. With sweaty hands I dig through my bag for my phone. Once my fingers fall on the glossy surface I quickly hit one on speed dial.

"Hello?" the comforting voice greets

"Mom, it happened again. I can't breathe. My head hurts. I can't-t mom-m please-e-e make it stop-p," I beg with a shaky, sweaty hand.

"I will be there as soon as I can," my mom replies and hangs up the phone.

I begin to cry as I lose control of myself. I hate having these spells! I feel so weak! Why must people try talking to me?
On a regular basis I am referred to as a nerd. In all honesty I am not a nerd. I am an A and B student. I don't like succeeding in school because that draws attention and the more attention I get the worse my spells get. Teachers have been instructed not to speak to me or even really look at me to prevent any spells. I am exempted from having to do any talking in class. But, when a bad spell hits I tend to miss a lot of school.

This all began when I was thirteen and my first spell occurred. I was at my old school a couple states away from here. The teacher had assigned a speech that had to be done in front of the class. When it was my turn I became very sweaty, a head ache set in, I had a permanent blush, and I thought I was going to vomit. My heart ended up beating so fast I passed out. For the next month I hide out in my house and only left to go to my psychologist.

During my first session with her, I walked in and I could automatically feel her judging me. Her eyes felt as if they were looking at me so closely causing fear to fill me. Sweat immediately began pouring out of me as she asks my name. I couldn't even muster up 'Abella Hope Kensington.'

My psychologist diagnosed me with severe Social Anxiety Disorder and I felt like everyone at my school knew and I couldn't return. So I talked my mom into moving me a few states away.

That is how my life began here at Washington High. To the best of my abilities I try to remain invisible. On my bad days I stay at home. When I go to school I have to hope no one talks to me. But I do have my bullies and when they come around there is nothing I can do against them since I go into a spell. This is my life that is ruled by a disorder. You have no clue what I would give to have my life back.