Lauren pov
I woke up looking around and noticed for the first time since being here i'm alone in the room.
I was in pain as I sat up causing me to wince and slightly whimper having to move extra slow. Once I was all the way up I let out a sigh looking around.
I looked down at my hands that have IVs in them and fixed the breathing tube in my nose. They say I can barley even breathe on my own
At the point I might as well just be dead.
Tears clouded my eyes as I looked at myself and once again I began to cry, genuinely depressed about this whole situation.
I just don't understand why.. Why would someone do this to me ?
Maybe it's the way I act, I come off too strong. I mean yea I can fight but I can't fight bullets, and whoever that was clearly wanted me dead.
It hurt so bad.. I was so scared..
I could only cry for onika, and listen to her talk to me over the phone as she drove. I couldn't move.. I couldn't talk.. I couldn't even breathe.. I was sitting there choking on my blood until I passed out
I watched the car leave after they shot me, they didn't even care. And I won't tell anybody but i'm scared.. Whoever that was tried to kill me.
They really tried to kill me. And I really almost died, I thought I was dead until I woke up.
what if the moment I step outside someone is trying to kill me again ?
I don't wanna go outside. I get scared everytime the door opens, and I know it's stupid. When nika got shot she didn't feel like this.
I can't help it though.. i'm scared.
I want to ask my dad can we put out differences aside and can he please protect me but he hasn't even came to visit me. It hurts my feelings too, I really need him right now.
I know nika could probably protect me but I will feel better if it was the both of them. My dad has a really heavy influence in the streets, I'm sure he could make sure nobody touches me. It was already like that for so long.. I don't know what changed.
Maybe he stopped caring about me.
The door opened making me quickly look over but it was just nika. She looks stressed, everyone around me looks so stressed and it's all my fault.
I don't want them stressing themselves out trying to help me. I wish this was a situation where I could pretend like i'm ok and refuse help like I usually do, but this time I need the help. I really do
"Noonie ? When did you wake up ? I heard nika bringing me out of my thoughts.
"not too long ago.." My voice came out quiet and rusty.
She quickly came up to me holding the cup of water up to me and I drunk from it. It hurt to swallow so I didn't really drink much before pulling away "thank you baby"
"You're welcome, are you feeling ok ?" she asked me with an worried expression
I gently shook my head "i'm in a lot of pain.."
Her eyes went wide and she quickly left out the room coming right back in with doctors. I frowned deeply seeing them and they came over starting to run check ups on me. I grunted some as they moved me whimpering some also
"I know y'all are doing your job but can you be a little gentle, please" Onika said from where she was before going back to biting on her finger nails.
They nodded in acknowledgement to her and finished up before giving me more medicine. Once everything was finished they walked away and nika let out a sigh running her hands through her hair
