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038

Months later

Lauren pov

"ONIKAAAAA !!" I loudly screamed feeling the bullets ripping through my skin. It felt like my entire body was on fire and I couldn't go anything to stop the horrible feeling.

"Baby where are you ?!"

I tried to respond but got choked up on the blood beginning to pour from me mouth. I struggled to breathe trying to move to a position where I could causing me to whimper in extreme pain

I could hear onika talking to me and tried to stay up but it's hard .. I can't breathe

I think I'm dying-

"Noonie !! Stop baby it's just a dream !!"

I gasped loudly shooting up in the bed and quickly looked around in a panic. Another gasp left my lips as I looked down at my body , feeling on myself to make sure I was ok.  

Every time I have that dream I can feel the bullets hitting me all over again . It always feels so real , every time

"It's just another nightmare baby , come here .." Onika pulled me into her allowing me to lay on her chest.

I sighed shakily and wrapped my arms around her gripping her. "It's ok mama , good morning" she softly said kissing on my face.

I sniffed with my eyes still closed staying against her while I calmed down.

"Maybe your mom was right about you needing therapy noonie .."

"im fine ."

"Lauren you've been like this since you left the hospital. Everyday you wake up crying" she said and I rolled my eyes some

"it's not everyday , stop being dramatic" I softly responded still trying to calm myself down from that dream.

"I'm not being dramatic n-"Goodmorningggg love of my life" I cut her off with a smile , climbing into her lap.

She straight faced me but when I started to kiss on her it soon cracked to a smile

"Goodmorning baby ,"

"kiss me" I mumbled kissing her lips after and her smile grew as she began kissing me back.

"Thank you daddy" I gave her one last kiss before pulling away.

I slowly stood up reaching over for my cane and began using it to help me walk. I heard nika laughing at me and looked over forcing a smile

I know she doesn't mean to , but that really hurts my feelings sometimes ..

I haven't been saying anything lately though because it seems like I'm being overly sensitive about everything . It's just .. hard .. it's hard being like this. I'm getting better but I'm still not better . I can walk but not really , and I hate using this cane. But I have to .

I ignored the stinging in my eyes looking down as I struggling to leave "stop laughing at me stupid .."

"My bad baby !! You just be looking like an old ass lady with that shit !"  She kept laughing

"yea , I know" I forced out a fake chuckle before leaving out the room.

I hate being like this ..

I went to use the restroom then began brushing my teeth and washing my face. While I was doing that the door opened and nika walked in

"Why you ain't wait on me ?"

I shrugged starting to put everything I used up. I felt her grab my arm so I turned to her seeing she was now frowning.