Let Me Love You [EXO Chanyeol]

Chapter 34

Kim Sun-hee

Why... why did you kiss me back?

The question echoed through my mind as I stared at him. In all honesty, I didn't know what to say, because anything that left my mouth could rat me and my feelings out. But at least I knew that he liked me back.

"I think it's better if you leave," I muttered. I got back on my feet and was about to step away from him, but he suddenly gripped onto my wrist and pulled me back, resulting in me landing on the bed.

He gave me a stern look. "Are you going to avoid it forever?" he asked, still holding tightly onto my thin wrist.

I gulped, feeling weighed down by his eyes of steel. "Why do you keep bringing it up?"

"Because it's driving me crazy." He let go of my arm and used his now free hand to caress my face. "I'm going crazy for you." He stroked my hair with his other free hand. "And I want to feel those lips of yours again," he said shyly, causing my eyes to flutter.

So do I.

I took a deep breath, still staring into his wide brown eyes that I had found myself daydreaming about for days. "Why..."

"Why, what?"

"Why don't you?" I gulped the lump that had risen to the back of my throat. "Why don't you kiss me?"

"Because," he began, "I don't want you to feel any more uncomfortable." His eyes shifted from my eyes to my lips. "But I'm dying to kiss your lips, because honestly, I haven't stopped thinking about them ever since."

I thought I was about to have a heart attack, since my heartbeat was erratical and my breathing uneven. I turned to look away from him, mentally cursing at my burning cheeks.

He held my face and turned me to look back at him. He looked desperate. "Say it, say that you don't feel anything for me... that way I can move on and stop hurting so badly."

"Chanyeol, I-"

"I don't want you to feel burdened because of me, but I'm dying to know. So just tell me. Don't be scared to say what you feel... if you like him better, then it's fine with me, but please, let me know. I can't sleep, I can barely eat, I can't concentrate. I need to know." He breathed heavily as his eyes bore into mine. "Please say something," he said after a short silence.

I was so overwhelmed that my entire body was burning. I was blushing hard, as well as falling deeper for the boy in front of me. In that moment, I knew. I knew that I couldn't keep on bottling my feelings any longer. I also realized that I couldn't avoid loving him because I didn't want to get hurt, or hurt Minseok, too. But my feelings were too intense, intenser than a thousand burning suns.

"I- uh," I began, feeling shy and unsure. "Do I really have to say it?"

"Yes."

I didn't look him in the eyes when I blurted out the three words that I had been dying to say to him. "I love you."

Silence engulfed us, and I still didn't look at him. His hand was no longer resting on my face, but instead on his lap. I felt the tears slowly forming in my eyes, threatening to fall at any second. I guess his feelings for me weren't that intense. Tears slowly streamed down my face, staining my jeans.

"H-hey, are you crying?" he whispered, yet again turning me to face him with his hands. He held my face in his hands, wiping the tears with his thumbs.

I just cried and sobbed even more, feeling my heart shatter into a thousand pieces. Not literally.

"Why are you crying?" he asked, staring at me with watery eyes. "Please, don't cry."

"W-why di-didn't you re-respond?" I sobbed louder.

He snickered as he wiped my tears away. "Because I can't believe you feel the same way about me as I feel about you."

My eyes shot wide open and bored into his. "Wha-at did you say?" I asked, feeling suffocated all of a sudden.

He neared his face to mine, to the point where his forehead was pressed against mine. "I love you." His breath felt ticklish against my lips. "Can I kiss you?"

I found myself nodding slowly, while still processing whatever the hell was happening right then.

Chanyeol connected his warm lips with mine, still holding onto my face. Two seconds later, he moved his hands from my face to my waist. I dug my fingers in his hair. He managed to lift me up and sit me on his lap in a straddle-like position. We kept on kissing, and after a while, he ran his tongue over my bottom lip, and I granted him access, letting him push it inside my mouth.

The message he wanted to send with this kiss was simple. He kissed me like he needed it, he kissed me like he needed me and did not want to let me go, nor lose me.

When we finally pulled away, I felt like I was going to suffocate. It seemed as if all the air in the room had disappeared and I was about to choke from the loss of air. I panted heavily, trying to compose myself.

We stared into each other's eyes, not being able to help the smiles that made their ways across our faces. He looked so adorable and giddy, making my heart flutter.

He laid me back on the bed and crawled over me. He began to leave a trail of sloppy, wet kisses down my neck, causing goosebumps to make their way to my skin. He then reconnected our lips, slipping his tongue inside my mouth immediately.

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"So what are we?" he asked, staring at the ceiling.

I shrugged, feeling slightly tired. "You tell me."

"I guess this is the lamest way to ask someone out, but, well, would you like to be my girlfriend?" He rolled over to his side in order to look at me.

I mirrored his actions and smiled mildly. "I would love that."

"Really?" he asked excitedly, grinning like a crazy man.

I laughed, shaking my head slightly. "Don't make me regret my decision."

"Hey!" He pouted, then stuck his tongue out. "But you do know how it'll be secretive and stuff? I mean, I would love to let the world know who you are and that you're mine, and have them take a glance at your beauty, but that would be risky for not only me, but you and even the rest of EXO." He huffed a sigh. "Do you think you'll be able to handle it?"

"Yeah, of course I will be able to handle it. As long as you promise to remain faithful, or else..."

He rolled his eyes. "What?"

"I'll spank your ass and... tell everyone your deepest secrets!"

He scrunched his nose. "Oh, God, what kind of girlfriend are you? God, what have I gotten myself into?" He chuckled.

I laughed. "But seriously, I'd handle anything for you."

"Me too." He placed a small peck on my lips, followed by one of his breathtaking toothed smiles.