Undead Desires (Book 2 of the Desire Series)

Chapter 1: The Letter

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This is the second book in the Desires Series, the first book is called Strange Desires.

Daryl

Life. Life is such a precious thing. A lot of people take it for granted and constantly complain and see the negative side to everything; believe me I was the same way before. Before her. I would wake up every morning wishing I didn't have to face my abusive dad and the criminal I had as a brother; but, after the world went to shit and I met the blonde haired, blue-eyed girl I knew my life didn't suck anymore. I had something to look forward to every single day. I had her to look forward to. I would wake up early every day just to see her; but now I have nothing to look forward to expect the dreadful future that lies ahead of me.

We arrive back to the prison in a hour, which felt like an eternity. Rick and I never said one word to each other because what do we have to say? The girl we both love is dead. She's gone. She's burned to nothing. Like she never was here. Who knows she could just be part of our mere imagination. The only thing existing to prove she was here is memories. Great, great memories.

I grab my crossbow from the back of the car. I push the door open and slam it after climbing out. Everyone gathers around us and seeing the excitement leave their faces as clarity sets in is heartbreaking. Glenn pulls Maggie into a hug as she begins to sob loudly. Carl looks at his dad and watching that boy cry will tear me apart. I push pass the group and storm up to the prison. I run into her cell and tear her room apart looking for that stupid letter.

I lift the mattress up and find the paper folded neatly. I take the paper into my hands as I peel it open. My eyes skim over her beautiful handwriting all over the page. I walk out into the dining room where everyone is sitting and holding one another. We all have been through so much and through everything we are always there for one another. Well they were always there for each other and she was always there for me. No one else but her.

I clear my throat, "before Abby died she, uh, told me to read this letter to everyone." I squeeze my eyes shut before opening the letter again. I look up and look at everyone's saddened faces. My scruffy voice and her words fills the air...

Dear The Group,
Don't expect flawless writing and for this to be more poetic than Shakespeare but I wrote this letter just in case something happened. I guess if you guys are reading this then something did happen. Please tell me I had some heroic death that people end books with. I always wanted to go out in a good way. I wanted to be a hero to my people and I hope I accomplished that. People write letters to say goodbye and that's what I am doing or am about to.
Maggie and Glenn,
You guys were always my OTP. In case you don't know what that means, it means One True Pairing. You guys are meant to be and don't let anything stand in the way of that. It's amazing that even in a world so ugly some people can make it beautiful. I want you guys to grow old and have a family together. You both have grown so much in the past two years and I am so happy knowing that I was a part of that journey. Tell your kids about me, okay?
Hershel, Carol and Beth,
You all are so strong. We weren't all that close but that doesn't mean I love you any less than I love Carl or Maggie. You guys shone a light into my life and in which I am forever grateful. Hershel you gave me a dad in the number of days I had. You helped heal my arm, stab wound, and gun shot but never complained. You listened to me cry, scream and complain. You never left me so I will never leave you. Beth, take care of baby Judith. She is going to need a good caretaker. Plus, you taught me good fashion could exist in hell too. You were another sister to me. Carol, I hope you get over that jackass of a husband and realize you are so much better than him. Become something. I hope you earn your place in the world and I can look down, proudly, and say "hey, I knew her!" Take risks. It's okay.
Carl,
You are definitely one of the strongest in the group. You feel invisible but you are not. You will grow to be such an amazing man and you will not disappoint me or your mom. You are the son I never had. Be easy on your dad, he has been through so much and needs a break. You grew up from a kid to a young man and it was a joy being by your side. Keep the Grimes name strong. Oh and by the way the long hair suits you. No more kid stuff, okay?
Rick,
My broken sheriff. I remember calling you that and you told me to call you deputy because you never got to be a sheriff. I was trying to be romantic. But you are a sheriff in my heart. You're the one person I could always count on to hold me when I am feeling down, to never leave, and to never forget. I am not going to tell you how much I loved you. You know all that already. I want you to face your problems head on. Make mistakes. It's okay, we all do. Every time I think of you I think of the nights we spent in the car on the highway, waiting for Sophia. Remember me as her. As the girl that smiled all the time. Don't cry, love, the world is full of possibilities so go catch one. You will always have my heart.
I pause as I am about to say my name. I grip the paper tightly. Footsteps approach me and I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up to see Rick reaching for the letter. The tears in his eyes are present along with the sadness over his body. I hand him the letter and let him read the final lines...
Daryl,
My, my, my redneck. Remember when that's all that anyone thought of you. Daryl equals redneck, no in between. But now you are a part of an incredible family and contribute so much. I always knew there was some unlocked potential in you. You always meant something to me and if not for the last few days I would never have realized how much. You taught me how to care again. You helped me become the person I am now and I am so thankful for that. Don't go back to being that redneck. I want you to be known as Daryl not the hunter or redneck. Remember that you were always my redneck and no one would ever change that.
I know its wrong to love two men at the same time but can you blame me? These two men have impacted my life so much and in ways I will never be able to explain. One has my heart and other has my soul. Forever. Only you two.
Thank you to everyone. You've helped me grow so much and I am forever grateful. I lived every day thinking I was the luckiest girl. I have you to thank. I lived every single day of my life wanting to make you all proud. I lost my footing, my track. I derailed for a while but I got back on track with your guys' help. Do not cry over me and everything we didn't get to say. My family was troubled and for most of my life I didn't have one. But who knew something that tore society and the world apart would bring together people of all backgrounds to love and support one another. I always wanted a family. I wanted kids and a big wedding. But, I knew how stupid that was for me to ask for. Even though I didn't get all that; I still got the best family out there. I know my time on the earth is done but I will always be with you. I will party with Andrea, have long conversations with Dale and finally be reunited with my brother. But, I will never forget you. I don't want you guys to cry over me. I want you guys to remember me as the spunky girl with blonde hair. Remember me with smiles and not tears. I don't ask for much but I am asking you guys to live out my memory. I want you guys to take my destiny and make it your own. Most of all don't forget me, please. For what its worth, I will never forget you. So when tomorrow starts without me don't think that we are apart because I am always in your heart. When this thing gets cured and I may not be physically there I would be there anyway. Everyday without me I will hold your hand and guide you.
I hate these things. I hate goodbyes. So see you guys later! I will be awaiting your arrival!
All the love and best wishes
Abby Xx

I close my eyes and beg for the tears not to come. Instead of being consumed by sadness, anger consumes. I take the table in front of me and flip it over. I yell as I keep throwing things. I feel arms wrap around me.

"Stop. Let go." I hear Rick whisper into my ear. Those words trigger something inside me but I don't know what.

I don't let anyone know what those words mean and the impact they have because I need something of her no one knows. Rick let's go of me. I watch him walk away. I go into my cell block and tumble to the ground. My eyes land on my poncho and my chest swells from the idea of never seeing her wear it again.

The poncho was sometimes the only way I would recieve warmth in my childhood. I never wanted any one to touch it, but when she was shivering with her knees to her chest I had to give it to her. The poncho was a part of me that I handed to her without even knowing. The poncho became a part of her and how she stayed warm and now she doesn't need it.

I knew life with her now I need to know life without her. And all the pain and heartache that brings.

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