Vexed ➳ j.g (DISCONTINUED)

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My tires screech as I pull into my driveway. Nobody is home, which I'm thankful for so I can let out all my emotions by myself.

this is such bullshit.

I turn the car off and step out of it, slamming the door shut and trying to keep in my tears for just a few more seconds. This is all just too much. I try to open the front door to the house, only to realize it's locked.

"Fuck!" I whine and fumble with my keys to unlock it.

Once I do, I throw my keys on to the couch and start pacing around the living room; my clammy hands rubbing my forehead.

I'm so done with everything, I don't understand what I did wrong to deserve all this shit. I just want to break everything in my path right now, but I can't.

"God damn it!" I yell and pick up a glass cup sitting on the coffee table, chucking it at the wall and watching it shatter to pieces. That made me feel only slightly better.

I venture into the kitchen as tears start running down my cheeks, resting my elbows on the marble counter top and putting my face in my hands.

This whole month has been terrible. Everyone at school believes Hunter, they believe that he caught me cheating on him with Jack- which isn't true. I did cheat on him, yes, but I didn't mean to, and he never caught me.

I just shouldn't have gotten involved with Jack at all, damn it. He's been involved with every shitty thing that has happened this past month. I lost my best friend because of him, I actually cheated on my boyfriend with him, I got into a fight with my own sister, and now everyone at school thinks I'm a slut.

I feel so fucking stupid.

My sweaty hands run down my warm face and smack on to the counter. My breathing is irregular, I'm slightly shaking, and my face has tears all over it.

I'm so over dramatic, but this shit hurts. I trusted him with this stuff and he disrespected me and told everyone about it. Who does that?

God.

I jump at the sound of the front door unlocking, then run to the nearest bathroom so they don't see me crying my fucking eyes out.

(I don't apologize for the language in this chapter because that's just how I talk and this is how anyone would act if this kind of thing happens to them)

"Hello?" I hear Tracy yell through out the house. Her boots click on the hardwood floor as she walks all around the living room, kitchen, and dining room. I don't answer her and she eventually just goes upstairs.

Cries pour from my lips as I turn on the shower. What am I doing? I don't even know. I step out of my pants, then shirt, then my underwear and get into the warm shower and just sit on the tile ground.

I continue to cry as I drop my head under the running water, letting it cascade down my shaking body and trying to calm down even just a little bit.

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ayyyy this is just a filler chapter sorry it sucks ass but after work tomorrow I'll start writing the next chapter and it will be longer I promise! and much better lol. hopefully I'll put it up within the next few days!