i feel worthless, why do i feel like that? like nobody needs me. yesterday was the first time i ever brought a blade into my skin, then it turned to multiple times, and all of a sudden i couldn't feel my arms, i just kept going until all i saw was red. that part of myself scares me, i never thought that someone would be so messed up in their brain that they'll hurt themselves, i guess i am. but who cares about me? no one fucking cares about me.
i am a WORTHLESS PIECE OF CRAP! THAT NEEDS TO DIE RIGHT NOW!
crap, i need to get this together, and a new pencil - with an eraser. i need to understand that it's only me whose going to help me, no one else. i've been abandoned many many times, so i don't need anybody. my self confidence is gone, i don't see it. the people at the home fixed the mirror, and i finally got to see myself and not in some cracked mirror, and i was horrifying. i understood why the girls made fun of me, i understood why the paper boys don't give me a second glance, i understand everything. i was pure ugly. all of the other girls are sooo pretty in every picture they come out in, but me? my fat in my cheeks show, my eyes always go chinese when i smile. every little part of me i see as bad. i told my guidance counselor how i felt and all he told me were things about myself that i thought were ugly.
well i should get going, lights are out, bye.
- cara the ugly
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Fiksi PenggemarCara was forced to buy a journal by her guidance counselor, and she writes all of her thoughts and feelings. And they're very dark. That is until she finds someone on the internet to be her reason to keep living, Nash Grier. She just wants to meet h...
