Just Give Me Your Smile (Daesung)

Chapter 15 - Warmth

I bawled for quite some time. My feet wouldn't move, not that it mattered...

How would I be able to face Samantha. I couldn't let her deal with full rent and living expenses.. I have a bit saved up but that'll go down the drain soon.

I needed a new job and that much was obvious, but where, and what? All the these questions pushed out more and more tears and exhaustion.

Suddenly I was engulfed in a vaguely familiar warmth. Normally, comfort was smiling and giggles but this comfort made me cry even more. I was hoisted up by the familiar figure. It was ParkSoo, but I was too crushed to say anything.

Now he saw part of the pathetic part of me. He'd be scared off and never want to see me again... Not that I'd be surprised...

I was being carried up the stairs. No words being exchanged but tears on my end. I cried into his chest and he held me bridal style. In that state I could tell I was comfortable like that.

His warm hands stroked my hair as I cried and he shooshed me softly, in a comforting way not a mean way. I guess he really is perfect. Which made me cry harder as I'd loose him for letting myself fall apart in front of him.

He laid me down on a couch next thing I knew. With blurry eyes, I looked around the unfamiliar apartment. It was much larger than Samantha and I's. Probably four or so rooms and two bathrooms? Why so big? Not that it mattered.

ParkSoo left for a moment, returning with a fuzzy blanket and wrapped me in it. By this time, I had stopped bawling. But, I was hardly better. Now I was numb and lost in my dangerous mind of horror. A place where I could beat myself up once again about how my life was never meant to be a successful one.

"Do you want some hot chocolate?" ParkSoo's soothing voice asked warmly. I nodded as I let the sweet sound of his voice warm me up inside and pull me closer and closer to sleep. How did this beautiful man come to like someone like me?

If he stayed, he would be someone I'd kill to keep in my life. He would have seen me at a time that could have looked like my worst, but I could get much worse.

Soon, he came back with a steaming mug in his hand and he placed it on a coaster on the coffee table. "Are you ok? Is there anything I can do?" He was on his knees in front of the couch. His very warm hands gripped mine.

I didn't know what to do. I was numb. What seemed right was to shake my head. "No.." My voice was raspy. Not at all attractive. "My work laid me off. I don't have a stable job anymore... I can't help Samantha Palau our rent, our living expenses. I have been trying to save money for some time but my salary was low already. There's nothing I can think of to do. The jobs I could do are more fit for teens and those teens will snatch the up... " I yammered on and on about my problems. My eyes were filling with tears, and my voice cracked many times.

Yet, he nodded and everything listening carefully and doing everything that could make this terrible situation any better. "I don't know what to do." I started to bawl and his arms enveloped me in a warm hug.

Then he started singing. He sang the song that had made things so much through all these years. "Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
한 번만 더 날 위해
Just give me your smile" he sang the whole thing. It made me cry but it put the slightest of smiles on my face.

He looked at my and smiled supportingly. "Alex, I'll help you through this ok? You're not alone in this. I'm sure by now you've noticed. But you can call me Daesung now." I nodded.

I would've freaked, but I didn't have the energy, but I appreciated him being here. That's all I could do. I held his hand, and he pressed his lips to my forehead.

For hours he sang to me. He made me feel all my problems feel distant. I ended up staying with him that night. The rest of BigBang didn't show up, but he said not to worry about it.

I decided to trust him. His warmth made it better. It always would.