Just Give Me Your Smile (Daesung)

Chapter 20 - ...

Daesung's POV

I waited in the waiting room for what seemed like days. My heart was tight. It was if I couldn't breathe.

As I was sitting there, I contemplated things that I didn't want to. Did she kill herself? Was it murder? Why would anyone do something like that?

My eyes were red and puffy and I held my head in my hands. The doctor never came. Hours were passing and Alex could be dead. The thought scared me into paranoia. Choi Seunghyun came by for a while to make sure I was ok. Which I wasn't. I just stared blankly at the floor as he visited. He had tried to console me and get me to think positively, but I just couldn't.

How could I? My Alex was dying. And I couldn't do anything about it.

After another hour, my stomach growled and I knew it wouldn't do any good if I was hungry. I'd just grab some Chick-Fil-A and come back. Maybe it would help me clear my head. If she did wake up, what would she think if she saw me a blubbering mess. I had to be strong, or at lease pretend to be. Yea... Pretend...

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My food was good. The most positive thought I'd felt since Alex had been admitted. How long has it been? It could have been years for all I cared. I think it's been a week. Every time I think about what could happen, I shut down. I'd been home once, and slept for a few hours, but that was about it. Maybe an hour a night otherwise.

It seemed pointless to give up yet the same for staying and waiting. This whole ordeal was mind splitting and painful. I couldn't keep my head on straight when every time I let my mind rest, the lone thought escaped into my reality.

"Could I have stopped it?"

A/N: IM SORRY THEYRE SO SHORT!!! I'm having major writers block right now plus finals are coming, and I just don't know where to go with this! Hopefully it'll get longer soon, but this is all I can give you for now! Sorry ;-; hope you liked it.