Just Give Me Your Smile (Daesung)

Chapter 21 - Waking Up

Alex's POV

When light filled my eyes, my stomach dropped down even further. This meant that I survived. I had survived when my intent was to die.

Maybe it was a good thing, but I just couldn't see it that way. Waking up meant that I'd have to go back to the bleak life I had. No job, a boyfriend that honestly couldn't love me out of all of those people, and a roommate who's obviously tired of my crap.

As my mind sunk further and further down, a doctor entered the room. "Oh! You're awake. Good to see that." The jotted some notes down on a clipboard. "So how are you feeling now? You didn't sustain too many terrible injuries, but you did hit your head really hard."

I didn't really want to say anything to him. Without noticing, my eyes had filled with tears, and if any words left my mouth at the moment, they would all let loose, and I didn't need that right now.

The doctor glanced over with a sigh. "Due to actions being nearly 100% confirmed as suicide, the hospital is strongly suggesting you get put on antidepressants. It's just a precaution because we've learned how much has been happening around you." The doctor was curt with me and honestly it just went straight through my ears.

Once he was done talking, he gave a nod and started for the door. "You have a visitor by the way. He's been coming every day."

At first I thought it would be Samantha. But looking over at the clock, I realized it couldn't be it was two o'clock in the afternoon and Samantha would be working at this time.

A flood of relief flushed through my veins when Daesung's ecstatic face showed through the doorway. In honesty it's also worth noting that a hint of dread was mixed with that relief.

What would he say to a suicidal freak like me

Thoughts similar to this flooded my head and suddenly all those tears that had come to my eyes flooded over before I knew it just looking at him, his eyes pouring into mine.

"Alex! You're awake!" He rushed over and gave me a tight hug. The next felling I felt was pain as it jolted through my body. Bruises I didn't know I had were being squeezed and I let out a cry. "Oh! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to..." He was frantically apologizing and then he noticed my tears and then his own fell across his face.

"They didn't know if you'd wake up. I was so worried. I'm so sorry I left you alone like that, I shouldn't have been late like that..." He went on rambling about how it was his fault until I put my hand on his arm.

"Please don't say stuff like that..." I whispered. My voice was hoarse from not being used for so long and it seemed to make Daesung feel worse as he wiped his tears. "I'm sorry I did this... I just..."

"It's..." He started to comfort me but he stopped himself. My mood dropped even further. Nothing could excuse what I tried to do. "Just please don't do it again..." He said instead. "All of us were so worried about you. Me and Samantha are here most of the day when she's not working. Jiyong even comes to visit for a while each day. So please don't think it's worth it to end your life here. Not when you've got even one person by your side." By the end of his comforting he was nearly in tears again as they flooded my vision.

His thumbs came to my face and wiped my tears away. "... I'm sorry..." I mumbled and my voice cracked.

He smiled softly at me. "Would you... sing Baby Don't Cry... Please..." I asked nervously and he nodded.

The melody danced around the room. Lifting my spirits up if only a little. As he sang, he stroked my hair and in that moment I felt I would be ok.