No Love Allowed

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

To be one

Arriving in the school's parking lot, I parked and un-did my seat belt. It was a long night. I didn't sleep much after the fight with my dad. I just haven't been feeling like myself for the past weeks. I didn't know what was going on anymore. I was loosing myself.

Never in my right mind, or in the right world would someone want to to defend or be with someone that they know for sure isn't human. Never in my right mind would I just get cuts all over my body and loose them with out a trace. What was going on with me?

I went straight to my first period after walking inside the school. I didn't even meet up with Brandon for once in my life. See what I meant? I was changing. And I was changing fast. I bet today was going to be a brand new day for me. It felt like something new overcame me... As if my life was just starting now.

It was only mid-january and my new years resolution was taking care of itself.

Time really did fly by fast.

As students started to fill in the classroom, I felt uneasy. Derek was going to walk in any minute and I bet he would come ask me what happened yesterday.... Maybe he already knows. Shit, I don't know what that boy is capable of.

I sat and waited for him.

The late bell rand and there was still no sign of him.

"So you're feeling better?"

I turned to look at Jennifer. I didn't notice her take her seat, or even come in the classroom for that matter. I nodded. "Y-yeah." I coughed, getting my voice together. "I'm better. I heard you visited." I said in a low, calm voice.

She just looked at me for a while before talking. "Yeah, I visited. I had spent the first night there." She looked down. "Do you have your phone?"

I answered her yes and she just nodded. She got up and moved a few seats over. She didn't look my way or talk to me for the rest of the class. She even found another partner when we had to grill chicken and cook rice. I did it by myself with no problem... Like the good ole days, alone.

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"Where were you this morning?" Brandon asked a few weeks later as he took a bite of his cheeseburger. We were sitting across from each other in our usual seats. "Came late." I shrugged.

My feelings toward my best friend changed as well. Ever since the fight with my dad, I just didn't care anymore... Now that I think about it, I haven't been caring about much lately.

"You've been acting weird lately. Whats up?" I could hear the worry in his voice but he said it as casual as he could.

"I don't know." Was my answer. He was smart enough to let it go. The lunch bell rung and we threw away our trays, making our way to P.E.

We walked in coach Jarrett's classroom and took our seats next to each other. Something told me to look back and I saw Derek sitting on the bench. He went missing for the last few weeks so when this feeling overcame me, I thought it was that I missed him.

My full attitude changed and I thought about what we would be doing right now if no one was here. My mind raced and I could easily feel his arms around my waist... his nose on my neck as he inhaled while muffling a moan.

I didn't know what was overcoming me. I wasn't in my I-don't-care mood anymore. What was this feeling? I tried to control the heat I had from going down to wake other body parts up but I couldn't help it as my groin started to enlarge.

"Alright class, it's the end of January." Coach Jarret started to say. Then he did his evil grin. "You know what that means!" Everyone all groaned at the fact that we were going to take a test.