No Love Allowed

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

For his own good.

                Things were going great with Derek and I. He basically asked me out and I all but happily agreed. Everything was awesome! Well, it was until you thought about other people. Other people like Jennifer, my parents and his ex-girlfriend. Yes! I said ex. How fantastic is that?!?

                But anyways, uhm… Jennifer is like really really disgusting me now. I don’t know why, I knew I never was interested in her before but now, it’s like… her sight is painful. I always cringe at the face and I come up with an excuse to avoid any of the plans she would make.

                I know it’s very wrong of me to be in a relationship with two people at the same time but I don’t consider her and me as in a relationship anymore. Normally, we barely talk and or see each other unless it’s in school. Yeah, that’s also my fault too. I am such a bad person, I feel like shit!

                But how can I break up with my girlfriend to tell her I have a boyfriend?

                I guess the next time I see her; I’ll try to end things with her. Hopefully it would be tomorrow because she hasn’t been to school in a week.

                I looked down at my phone as it lit up and vibrated on my lap. I read the message Derek sent me and felt my face heat up. I don’t know what it is with this guy –or my life at this moment for that matter. How can the guy I’ve been crushing on for the longest happen to like me back? It just isn’t right.

                I love you, Charles.

Just those simple words get me like this. What if someone takes my phone or something? Gah! Leave it to me to think of the worst at one of the best moments in life.

                “Go pay for the gas, Charles.” I heard my father say. What a buzz kill.

Grabbing the money from his hand, I opened the door and made my way to the gas station store.  The man asked me for the number of the pump and I smiled, telling him to hold on for a second. Looking out the window, I saw the number 4, but I also noticed that my dad was frowning. Following his gaze, I saw two guys holding hands.

                Of course one was very flamboyant and the other was macho. I shook my head and turned around and faced the clerk. “Sixty on pump number 4.”

                I come outside to find both my parents now looking at the couple. I started to look too, except there wasn’t a frown on my face… I masked the expression of admiration. I thought that they were so lucky, so lucky to live a happy life… without having to hide…without having to act like someone else…