Prodigious Abyss (I love you , best friend)

chapter eight

Daniel's POV

She didn't say much the whole ride home , i didnt want to push her to speak so i just kept squeezing her tiny hand in mine to reassure her that everything is okay .
I know my family can be pushy and ennoying sometimes , besides my father and cousin are pretty presistant to get us to admit that we could be more than just friends .
They pulled that play with me but i'm not the type to get bothered easely , i'm a cold blooded person , i  get ennoyed only when i let myself be .
Besides , i won't lie and say that i havn't thought lately about what they said , it's getting harder day by day to ignore the tension building up between the two of us , and be sure as hell it isn't a friendly type of tension .. and its driving me crazy !

But unfortunately , Lina isn't a cold blooded person , its funny when i get on her nerves sometimes , but seeing her so anxious and upset isn't something i like to see .

She always overthinks things , even little things that do not equire much attention ..
She always analyses stuff and study all the possibilities and what comes with every little thing .
And she's probably doing that , in this very moment .

I am sure in that head of hers she's fighting with her thoughts about what my father and cousin said , and what had acuired lately between us .

And as much as i like to put light on our situation and see where we are going , but her well being is more important . I don't want to see her anxious and quite and always thinking and trying to come up with the best solution to save us all !

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As i parcked the car Lina was still looking out of the window unconsciously , still not aware that we are home .
I fought the feeling of anger rising deep inside of me , i do not like to see her like this , and its even worse knowing that i have caused this .

I calmed down and breathed in , getting rid of those thoughts .

" We're here Lina "

" oh , already ?" She chuckled nervously , "that was fast".

'Was it really ? Cause sure as hell that was the longest ride of my entire life '  i spoke subconsciously .

We made our way inside the house finding cara and ethan looking like zombies as they were sitting around the kitchen island sipping what looks like coffee .

"Hi guys " lina greeted a little too cheerfully for their liking as they groaned .

" i'm never drinking again " cara groaned rubbing her forehead .

" that's bullshit babe , you know you will " ethan said .

" yes , i probably will " she shrugged back .

"So how was baseball " cara asked , looking at the both of us .

I noticed how lina tensed and got off her seat and went to the fridge getting a bottle of water , so far i'm still controlling this feeling , that does not aprove to see her like this .

"It was okay , you know how they can get , but it was fine .
Steve got hit on the balls by lina with a baseball stick though .
Oh and ethan .. you're in deep shit with dad for missing out "

We spent a good time talking and chatting , and apparently Lina won the bet , they sure did not get laid last night , and as much as i hated loosing the bet , i'm still happy that they didnt do the deed in my bed .

Few moments later , lina excused herself saying that she needs to shower and change .

" what's up with emma ? " cara asked just when lina left .

"What do you mean ? "

" she seems bothered and not in a good mood " ethan said and cara nodded .

" i don't know .. its nothing don't worry about it " i shrugged it off not knowing how to explain this shit .

" does it have to do with you kissing last night ? " cara asked narrowing her eyes while smirking at me .

" yeah .. kind of " i sighed .

" and do you care to explain what's that all about then ?"

" nope " i replied simply as i got up to change as well .

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Cara and ethan said they will stay for lunch before they leave and head back home .
So currently its me and Lina in the kitchen preparing food as both of them are setting the table .

Lina was still quite , abscent minded , and bothered you can read it all over her features .
I sighed as i convinced myself to let it go for now .

I was boiling the pasta in one hand and keeping an eye on the sauce as i heard her hiss in pain .
I looked at her and saw as she cut her finger while chopping some fruits . She clearly was not even paying attention to what she's doing abviously to caught up in her thoughts to actually see what she did to herself ! .

" jesus fucking christ Emma !" I snapped as i held her hand in mine examining her cut .
" what the fuck is going on in that head of yours ! Look at what you did to yourself ! You're always overthinking stuff till it makes you weak and tired of what you're actually doing !
Is this all because i kissed you ? Damn it if it's what's causing this state you're in then fuck me i won't kiss you ever again !
I'm still here god damn it im still daniel you're god damn best friend so stop overthinking this , just fucking stop ! "
I snapped at her as i she fliched away , her eyes watering .
She just looked at me shocked of my outburst but i just couldnt hold it in anymore .
She's over reacting and its not good for her .
I just can't be nice and calm about this any longer , its just .. so fucking disturbing .

Cara and ethan were snooping from the kitchen door as they heard it all.
They looked at us then each other with questionning looks and apparently feeling like they shouldnt be here right now .

I watched as lina left me standing there and ran to her room shutting the door forcefully making all of us flinch .

" fuck " i hissed between gritted teeth as i realized what i just did , but come on its not like she gave me a choice .
She's over reacting , while we could sit and have a conrsation like we always do . Nothing has to change and she needs to understand that .
If she is scared that i'd leave her once our feelings are changed then i won't .

Hell , its not like we decided that we should take this to the next level , if she asks me to drop all this and forget it ever happened then i will .
I'll try and eventually i will .

But she needs to let me in first .. she needs to talk to me .

" what the hell was that daniel ? " cara asked bringing me back from my thoughts .

" leave it alona cara , its none of your business " i replied , and regretting it instantly .

' well , blame it on my anger i guess'  i thought to myself .

" you better watch that mouth baby bro , it sure is my business , what the hell did you do to her " she snapped back .

' well at least we share the attitude ' i thought to myself , again .

" clearly big sis , as you can see , now is not the time to explain any of this to you . " just as i said that i heard lina's sobs and screams filing the house .

She was crying hysterically , and screaming .
I havn't heard her crying or screaming like this since i first found her .
This can't be good .

And sure enough my last thought was prooved by the sound of hitting and smaching , she apparently got the shit out of her room .

Cara and ethan's eyes widened , as i was scared of her actions myself .
Well , more afraid of her safety more than anything .

" you guys shouldnt be here , i need to take care of this " i spoke sincerly as i ran my hands through my hair thinking about what i should do .

" yeah , we'll leave " cara replied as they both nodded in understanding.

They got their stuff and left hesitated , leaving me alone with an angry , probably depressed Lina who pretty much hates my guts right now .

" oh Lina , what have i done .. "