Prodigious Abyss (I love you , best friend)

chapter thirteen : the date !

I didn't realise that i had slept in the car , until danny started clapping his hands and poking my sides to wake me up .
As if a gentlle shake wouldn't have suffised .

"Danny !" I whinned

"Come on , let's get you inside .
You need to eat , take your pills , change your bondage and then you're free to do what ever pleases you ." He explained while we go out of the vehicule .

" yeah , getting some sleep sounds like a plan right now ." I yawned strettching while he unlocked the door .

After doing exactly what daniel instucted me to do , i had only one thing in mind : sleep .

I headed to my room , threw on a baggy shirt and got under the covers .
From now on , Cara and her beloved Ethanial can kiss my ass .
I'm not buying it anymore , they can break up and fight as much as they want for all i care .

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I felt beautiful , looking at my reflection in the car window , smiling to myself .
I sighed feeling the cold breeze caress my warm skin .
I was wearing a dress , a pink short sundress , my hair falling in waves over my shoulders .
It's been a really long time since i felt this way , satisfied with myself , with the way i look . I felt special , and lucky might i add .
I felt hands creeping around me , fingers slowly caressing my sides and eventually locking around my waist , i smiled almost too sure about who it was .

He breathed me in , and softly exhaling out , his breath fanning my neck , sending waves of excitement through me , a shiver down my spine.

" you look absolutely beautiful " he said .

Every muscle in my body tensed , and not in the way they should have.
My breathing got heavier , and i started to freak out .
That was not the voice i've been wanting to hear .
That voice is not the right voice , cause it's not his .

I lifted my eyes from looking down to feet , dreading to look at the reflection of the man behind me , but i did .
And my heart sanked as i was now sure that it was not him , the one i was hoping for , the one that should be standing here with , but instead it was christian .

I didn't get to react , to pull away , to explain that this is a big mistake.
To run away , and look for him and have him hold me in his arms .
But i didn't get to do that as it was too late . I heard his voice ,
deep , cold , with a tone he only used with strangers but not with me .

A tone that i always been afraid of , because it made me feel that i'm not in my right place . That i'm not home .
A tone that made me feel strangely alone , cause the one that makes me feel warm inside , and the one that being by his side is what i consider and call home is probably mad or even hates me .

I looked at him standing on the other side of the car , as he watched me with clear disappointment , disguss writen on his features .

"I never knew you were capable of betrayl Emma ." He said .

Emma , he never calls me Emma only when he's angry with me .

"I can no longer offer you a place by my side . But i hope he gives you that ."

I felt guilty , i felt dirty , as if i had done something unforgivable .
And i truly felt like i betrayed him .
I felt like a filthy cheater ..

I tried to push christian away from me , i tried to reach for daniel .
I tried to talk , to stop him from walking away from me but i couldn't.