Prodigious Abyss (I love you , best friend)

chapter eighteen : new beginnings

"How did that feel ?" Cara asked me with a small smile on the corner of her lips.

i almost forgot she was there all along , and  I didn't realize that i was holding her hand so tightly. But then again , she can't blame me for being this nervous.

"Surprisingly pleasant , heartfelt " i replied.

"Oh Listen to her , one conversation with her parent and she's all posh again." she teased.

"No seriously , I've always imagined my first contact with them would be stressful and with alot of yelling and stuff , i've always pictured myself to scream at them and call them names and just let it all out you know ? But something about father's voice was so soothing , it made me feel stuff like in my heart and in the pit of my stomach." i explained.

"Yeah i get it , you miss them Emma. You've always have , and i know that they've hurt you on many occasions , but i think it would be better if you'd consider leaving it all in the past and try to forgive them." 

" Yes it would be wise to do so , i'm not quite ready for it , but i think i'll never be. But i seriously do believe that it's time to move on. My heart has been is so much pain and i think it deserves a break , and a second chance." 

"I'm proud of you." she smiled and side hugged me.

"I can't believe Daniel is not here for this. He always said he would be , once i decided to take this step , but look at us now." 

"Screw him , I'm here." she pouted and elbowed me playfully .

"I know, and i'm grateful but it's not the same and i believe you understand." i explained and she nodded in understanding. "He hurt me Cara , maybe not willingly but he broke my heart and he does so every single day , when he walks in at night wearing that secret smile , or when he smells of her cheap awful perfume , or when i hear them giggle and make love in his bedroom. Most devastating of them all is not being there for me anymore , not with our usual daily stuff but through the big decisions he promised he'd be there for. He is killing me everyday , every minute , every second , and i'm forced to stand there and watch , to accept his choices , to accept the fact that i'm left behind now . Do you understand how hard it is for me to fake a smile everytime she comes over ? I'm not that kind of person Cara , i don't do that , i don't fake smiles and lie about what i think of people. I just want to look her straight in the eyes and tell her that i hate her , that she's a snake and i know that she's up to something , i want him to see that i'm suffering and that i'm not okay in her presence." i sighed long and deep and burried my face in my palms.

"Damn." Cara breathed out and rubbed my back "I'm sorry about how you feel"

we stayed quiet for a moment , the room seemed too suffocating , everything does when my mind wander to that subject.

" You really shouldn't be holding this in like this , you deserve to voice your opinion . it's fucking toxic to be living inside this crap and see it everyday and try to live with it." she suddenly spoke again , like she had a change of thoughts.

i raised my head up and looked to the side to see her getting all hyped up. I sat straight and i looked at her with a frown.

"No seriously Emma , you hate the bitch , and Daniel is hurting you , you don't have to be okay with it. Fuck it let's do something about it." she stood up .

"If you're suggesting i talk to him abo-" i started and she cut me off.

" No you don't owe him that , we should do something less serious , i have an idea , get my keys and let's go."

I could use some of Cara's stupid and somehow surprisingly fun ideas.I didn't argue or try to talk her out of it  so i just grabbed the keys and followed her out of the appartment.

we got in the car and she strated the engine and gave a devilish smile.

" Care at least to tell me what you have in mind?" 

"We're going to the mall near by , we're going to buy a shit load of booze and a shit load of eggs , we're going to get seriosuly drunk and then we're going to drive to her house and egg the shit out of it.

"Fuck yeah , drive away sister" 

This is stupid , immature and would probably get Daniel really angry with me , but isn't that kind of the point. Screw him i'm not going to think about his feelings tonight , i'm going to try and forget mine , and even though this is probably the most childish thing to do but i want to do it.

After doing grocery , we decided to drive the her house or at least near by before getting drunk so we won't risk gettig in trouble or getting ourselves killed. We pulled off a couple of blocks away , we lowered our chairs , sat the music high and drank until we ran of out of alcohol , we weren't compelety drunk , but that's okay i want to be awake for this.

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"Oh my god she's gonna be sooo pissed" i giggled and threw another egg.

"This is for stealing my brother you SNAKE!" Cara yelled and threw an egg straight to her window. "And this is for breaking my best friend's heart!" she threw another.

" shhhh-shhh" i laughed. " let's not wake the neighbors." 

"Too late for that , throw'em Emma , come on!" This bitch is completely crazy!

we sat on the side of the sreet once we ran out of eggs laughing our asses off , this was really  antidepressant  and fun.

"Thank you Cara , i seriously needed this." 

"Yeah don't worry about it , she deserves this " she shrugged.

"But does she though ? i know that i say that she's up to something and that i don't trust her but that could be my jealous thoughts. We can't blame her for something he chose."

"No , you're not the only one that thinks she's up to something.I've seen her too many times at the office , i see the way she looks at us , at my brother , she acts all shy and sweet but i see the looks she gives us when she thinks no one's watching. when she applied for the job as assistant she thought is was for Danny's. little did she know that it was for my father. She tried her best to switch positins with danny's assistand but i made sure that doesn't happen. And this was way before they got together. And now that she's with him she decided that she no longer wants to be an assitant and instead asked him to talk to dad and offer her the position of office administrator , Give it a month or two and then she'll tell him that she doesn't want to work anymore and that they should move in together , and then she'll  openly use him for his money."

"Holly shit , i didn't know about any of this." i said in disbelief.

"yeah , believe me i know the type , the company is full of these gold digging bitches. I just don't know what's up with Danny , he knows this better than i do , and i always thought he had a filter for this type of girls."

"Let's just hope he doesn't find out about her true intentions the hard way" .