who i am and why i'm not (poetry)

envy

I'm jealous of the sunshine.

the way her gold caresses your body.

how she reaches deep into your eyes,

turning your hazels into evergreen.

I envy the moon because she gets to

stay with you after

we say goodnight.

the stars dance in your dreams and the

night air dwindles in your lungs.

how i wish to be everything that

touches you.

how i yearn for all of my being

to intertwine with yours,

for our souls to be

braided together and

finished off with a pretty bow.

you are everything i

have ever wanted.

you are the breath I swallow

greedily,

the love I drink like water.

skin to skin will never be enough.

I am jealous.

-V