THEM 'Ishman'

सफरनामा 🌻💛

On 18th July, 2024, I was sitting with my laptop, pressing keys again and again, writing whatever came to mind.

I didn’t really know how things worked, how to edit, how to properly write a story but I just let myself drift, floating with the breeze and letting the sea take me wherever God had planned.

Yeah, as always, doing something totally random, aata pata, kuch bhi nhi pata type situation.

And guess what? Guess what I was writing? I was writing the very first chapter of my first ever book.

Yup, baby, the first chapter of Ishamnism.

That book is so embarrassing now... whenever I even think about it, I feel my face heat up.

It really does need editing. Should I do it?

Change a few things here and there, add a few details? Would you all give it a chance again?

That book still holds so much for me, so many memories, so many stories tucked between those imperfect lines.

It wasn’t just my first book; it was also my first step onto Wattpad, my first real step into writing something I could share with the world.

It was my first little attempt at turning thoughts into words and words into something real.

Most importantly, it became my first step toward meeting all of you, finding all of my sweet, sweethearts who’ve supported me, loved me, and stayed with me through every cringe and every chapter.

And for that, Ishamnism will always be special.

And let me tell you all one thing, this is so embarrassing, but what I used to think back then was… that....that the more the moans, the better the chapter.

If you’ve ever read Ishamnism, maybe you know what I mean.

But still, there are so many good memories attached to it.

That book taught me so many things on its own and gave me so many sweethearts, and for that, I’m always grateful.

It wasn’t exactly easy, but it wasn’t too hard either.

Starting from zero and reaching even this far means so much to me.

You know, when you begin with nothing, there isn’t really anything to lose. I had nothing to lose, so I kept writing and writing, and you tiny, pretty humans kept reading and reading and loving.

There’s so much more I could say about it, so many feelings and thoughts, and truly, I could talk about it for hours… well, honestly, I can talk about anything for hours.

I do chapar chapar a lot😔✋

Looking back, it feels strange yet so warm.

That silly belief of mine, those endless late nights, those first comments, those tiny milestones, they all built something that still makes me smile.

Even if it makes me hide my face in embarrassment now, I can’t deny how special it was, and still is.

In the end, Ishamnism didn’t just give me a story. It gave me memories, lessons, and most precious of all, it gave me all of you.

I started reading "Ishman" randomly, and I fell in love.

Over time, a lot of things have changed, and a lot has happened, some moments have even been a little heartbreaking but what has stood out till now is that I’ve only fallen harder for them, for them being together.

I don’t really know what’s truth and what’s lie, and honestly, I’m happy if they’re happy.

But what I do know, and what I’ll always remain, is this, a girl loving two men who love each other.