Oli and I

Chapter 12

Rachel's POV

   It took all my might to knock on his door. I didn't know how I was going to confront him. I didn't know what to say. My mind was all over the place while I waited. Why did he lie? What will he say? Why did he kiss me?
All those thoughts came to a hault when he opened the door. I couldn't read his expression. It was a weird cocktail of confused, happy, and relieved.

"Hey I was just about to call you." He said. He ushered for me to come in. His expression didn't match my confused anger. Like he knew something that I didn't.
"Why did you lie to me?" I went out and said it.
"What?" He asked.
"About your girlfriend. The fact that you don't have one. If you didn't like me you could have just said so." I tried to keep my voice at a low but it was hard. It was the only conclusion I could come up with on the way over here. He must have told me he had a girlfriend because he wasn't interested in me and he wanted to make sure that I never got interested in him. I mean it didn't work.
"No no no." He said. "I told you I had a girlfriend because I thought you were dating Joe. I just said it because I didn't want you to think I was lame."
Now I was royally confused.
I interrogated for some answers "why would you think I was dating Joe?"
"Because I saw you guys kiss at the party and you guys went out on a date and when I asked either of you about it you said it went alright."
A lot of things were starting to click into place.
"Joe and I decided we weren't right for each other. I mean yes we hooked up a couple of times while I was there but there was no feelings behind it." I explained myself in the best way possible.
"You what?" His facial expression completely dropped. He sat down on one of the two beds in the room.
"No. Well yes. But he was just a rebound from my ex boyfriend." My pulse was starting to pick up and my heart started to feel like it was going to fall out of my chest.
"Well what was I then? Part of that whole thing? Do you even like me Rachel?!" He got upset and it made me panicky. I couldn't hold onto my words.
"No Oli I can explain." I was about to choke on my words some more before he stopped me.
"Don't bother. You can go." He walked over to the door and opened it. 
I couldn't muster up the strength to say anything else. So I didn't. I just left.
Most of the youtubers were staying in the same hotel so Arden and I's room was up two floors.
I didn't want to feel trapped in an elevator so I took the stairs.
I didn't even bother to try and climb them. I sat down on the first step and just let it out. It was the first time I had cried since this whole ordeal began. Even since the whole Mark thing.
I just cried. I liked Oli so much. I don't know if I could explain everything that happened with Joe. I didn't know if he would be able to look past it.