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AUGUST 21 - xxakanexx's Character's Letter

A letter to forever

To my lovely wife,

It's been... I don't know... eight years since you took your long time vacation, and up until now, I miss you. I still do. Hindi ko masukat, Apollo, kung gaano na ang pangungulilang nararamdaman ko para sa'yo. Sometimes, babe, when I couldn't sleep, I hug the pillow you once laid your head on and just lay there. I would think about our memories together and it's funny how the funny once turns to be the most heart breaking memories I could ever imagine.

I miss you, babe... I sometimes wish that you are still with me. That one day, I will wake up with you beside me again - still sleeping. I would stare at your face until you smile and open your eyes. I would kill to hear your voice again, Apollo. I would give up everything just to hold your hand again. I would do everything - even if that's to pawn my soul to the devil - so I could see you again...

But... I just have to let it go. Life goes on... Iyan ang sinabi ko kay Laide noong umalis na rin si Adam. I know you two saw each other already and I was just wondering if he said HI for me to you. If he did, say THANK You for me to him - and that I miss our little talks.

Life is different now my love... The kids are growing up. Ares didn't get his triplets but he's happy with his three beautiful kids and of course, with Bathseeba. Hera - your only daughter has a contented life now, babe. She has five kids and she's very, very happy. She's very in love with Hades and Hades, babe, gave Hera everything he could. He treated her like the queen that she is.

But sometimes, babe, I see Hera looking at your portrait with tears in her eyes. She misses you, my dear Apollo. You were her best friend. Alam kong pareho kami ni Hera ng hiling at iyon ay ang pagbalik mo.

Hermes on the other hand became the man that you knew he would be. Inaalagaan niya ang mag-iina niya and must I tell you, Apollo - Artemis is growing up and she reminds me of the young you - carefree, happy and spontaneous - also, she wants to be a nurse - just like you and her face resembles yours so much that when I look at her, I feel the pang in my heart.

Palagi kong naiisip ang mga what if, Apollo. I know that you would have been so happy meeting your grandchildren - lalo na siguro si Artemis. She thinks like you, sometimes. Minsan very impulsive siya - mana sa akin pero napipigil iyon ng utak niyang mana sa'yo

Our grandchildren make me happy. Apollo but I would be happier if you're with me while watching them grow. Hera's twins are now seven years old, Telulah is five and Artemis is sixteen - everyone is getting older - lalo na ako.

Puti na ang lahat ng buhok ko. Malabo na ang mga mata at paminsan-minsan ay inaatake na ng rayuma pero isa lang ang hindi nagbabago, iyon ang pagmamahal ko para sa'yo.

Naalala mo noong magkasama pa tayo? Iyong favorite time of day mo - five o'clock. We would sit by the pool and hold hands and you will tell me your visions of our forever. That's my favorite moment. I remember you were telling me that when our hairs turn gray, we would still MOMOL and we would still do he stuffs we do back when we were still younger. Sinabi mo na kapag nirayuma na ako, you would take care of me - naniwala ako, Apollo. Pero hindi ko inaasahan na darating ako sa pagkakataon ng buhay ko na ito na ako na lang mag-isa.

Umiiyak ako. Hindi naman dapat dahil alam kong masaya ka na pero kung minsan, sinasbi kong dinaya mo ako. Dinaya mo ako dahil nauna ka at hindi mo ako hinintay. I'm sorry, babe, for thinking this way. Hindi pa rin naman kasi nawawala iyong Lukas na matigas ang ulo. Nandito pa rin ako, hinihintay ka - pero hindi na ang pagbabalik mo. Hinhintay kong sunduin mo na ako. But that would be a long process. But I'll wait - no matter how long, I will wait, Apollo. Nakapaghintay na ako nang ganito katagal, hindi na siguro magiging mahirap ang susunod na mga araw o taon.