Thuggin' Love

Chapter 18

Desean POV

Few Days Later

We've been in Cali for two days just chilling and shit. I was skeptical about coming out here at first, but now I love this shit! Got fine bitches everywhere! Shit a lot more expensive but I got bands so it ain't hurtin my pockets.

We over here sitting at this lil tiki hut burger shack place , straight cuttin the hell up! "Ayo ma! You got asthma? Cause you got that ass-ma!" JD shouted to this girl walkin past the burger shack. We was dying laughing at his dumb ass. Chris over acting ass fell outta his chair laughing, causing everyone one to laugh even harder. Even a few strangers began to laugh.

A pale, skinny chick walked by fast as hell. "Girl you want my burger? You look like you need it!" Chris shouted causing us to laugh. She stopped, looked over at us, looked me dead in my eyes and ran. Something about her looked so familiar to me. I looked at the guys, got up, and ran after her. She stopped at the corner of the street and leaned up against the building. I'm guessing she thought she got away. I ran and tackled her to the ground. "Oooow! Get the fuck off of me Desean! " the woman yelled. How the fuck does she know me? "Who are you and why the fuck did you run off like that?" I demanded. She sat up and scratched her arms. Something I've seen too much. "It's me... Lisa" she said. Lisa... Shayna's friend?

"Shayna. I wanna know where she is" I said knowing she knew where she'd be. "I uh... um... hell I don't know. I'm here with a friend of mine" Lisa said while scratching her needle stricken arms. I've seen it before. I push weight. I push every drug you can't think of. She looks like a crack addict. Might be a mixture of crack and heroin . That shit can be lethal. Maybe if I get her any drug she wants, she tell me. But all that aside, what the fuck happened to this girl? She seemed so brilliant.

"What if I get you what you need? Crack or heroin ?" I tried to barter with her. When I said that, her eyes lit up. She sighed and bit her lip. "Heroin will be fine" Lisa said lookin at the ground. I feel bad for doing this shit, but I wanna be in my child's life. "Good. That's real good" I said grinning.

Lisa POV

I hate to sell my girl out like that, but I need this shit. I was on my way to Ro's place, when i saw Desean. Ro's slowly been cutting me off, saying if I want the drug I gotta do a few favors for him.

I already know what the hell he's talkin about. I can't do that to myself again. After that first night, I've "helped" him about 5 more times. When I said that I can't do that shit no more, he beat the shit out of me. Sayin that I'm his bitch and whatnot. I can't take this shit no more. I've contemplated suicide so many times. But I just can't bring myself to pulling the trigger.

I told Desean where we lived and he gave me the drugs. And I'll say, his shit was WAY better than Ro's shit.

I sat at the beach, high as a fuckin kite! Yeah.. I love this shit. Hell if Shayna don't take Desean back, I'll take him. As long as he keeps giving me that good shit. Plus I heard he got good dick. Now that's a life worth living!

Shayna POV

I just got back from school. Before I went home, I decided to go and get myself some Five Guys. I swear I love that place! Big ads cheesy burgers! And my baby likes it too. It almost seems like that's the only thing it wants me to eat. If I look at certain foods, I'll vomit. That's how bad it is.

I pulled up to my condo and seen a car in the driveway. It wasn't Lisa's so who the hell is here? Plus I haven't seen Lisa in a few days. I try calling her phone sometimes and it says that it has been disconnected. I hope and pray that this girl ain't dead nowhere. Maybe I should file a police report..

I walked up to my front door and twisted the knob to see if whomever this car belongs to, got inside of my house. When the door opened, I panicked. I pulled my gun out of my purse and swung the door open. I looked around the room and no one was there.

I slowly made my way into my kitchen. There was a person, tall male standing in front of the fridge , taking food out of it. "What the fuck? Why she barely got food in this bitch? I hope she been eating right" the man said. That voice. That deep pitched voice. It can't be. How did he find me? How did he get in?

I slowly crept out of the kitchen entryway. I slowly walked to my bedroom. I pushed the door open to where there was no noise coming from it, and entered. I went into my bathroom and locked the door behind me. I know he'll come to check but, ughh! Why did he have to come here? Why did he have to find me? I was doing perfectly fine without him.

I had to pee, so I did. I swear this damn baby always wanna sit on my damn bladder. I flushed the toilet and washed my hands, forgetting about Desean for a second. Then my head shot to the door. I heard footsteps in my room. "Damnit damnit damnit Shayna!" I whispered to myself.

"Shayna? I know it's you. Come outta there please. Let me talk to you" Desean called from the other side of the door. I sighed and hesitated at first. Then opened the door and came face to face with HIM. He looked... rough. He'd grown a beard. He looked different.

Our eyes locked for what seemed like an eternity. Then he looked down to my swollen stomach. His eyes watered, then he looked away. Why does he seem so broken? He was the one who didn't want anything to do with me nor the baby!

"Look, those things I said. Those things that I did, I really didn't mean any of it. I..I was just stressed. Latasha was stressing me and then you tell me that your pregnant. I didn't know what I thinking. What i said to you, that should've been for Latasha's hoeing ass. Now I know for damn sure that you're carrying my baby. Her? I don't know. I'm waiting to see about that one. But Shayna. Why did you leave like that? I thought someone snatched your ass up girl! I've been going crazy trying to find you! Please come back home to me. I... sigh.. I need you around me. I need to be there for you and the baby. I love you Shayna" Desean pleaded now on his knees. "I can't do this without you" he said.

It felt like my heart dropped, to hear him say this. Does this man really love me? Is he capable of loving someone?

"I love you too Desean"