Thuggin' Love

Chapter 13

Shayna POV

The next week

I've been feeling so sick after that night of my birthday. I'm starting to think I have a bad virus or something. I moved back into G-May's house. I just couldn't take being in that house with that hoodrat of a baby mama that Desean has. I really can't believe his dumb ass got her pregnant! I've got to get passed that shit. I shouldn't have been fuckin with a drug lord anyway. I have goals in life. And speaking of those goals, I'm thinking about going to The University of California- Berkeley, to become a lawyer. I just have to get out of louisiana, ain't shit here for me no more. I have no parents, no known relatives, nothing. I gotta make something of myself, and I gotta do it on my own.

But anyway, I have my doctors appointment today. I'm nervous because I've heard so many crazy stories about these types of doctors.

I made my way to the room that the nurse told me to go into. They told me to pee in a cup, give it back to the nurse, and wait for the doctor.

The doctor came in and did a few tests. He stuck this probe thingy in there and opened it up. Baby when I tell you that shit HURT! Lawdd! I almost kicked the shit outta his ass! Then he did a breast exam. And left.

About 20 minutes later he came back with papers in his hands and began to talk. "We found something that will hinder you from being given birth control. Shayna, you're a week and a half pregnant" he told me. What? What the fuck did he just say?! PREGNANT?! I think I'm going to pass out. Oh God no.. I'm going to kill Desean! "You... are you sure?!" I said letting the tears fall. "Yes I'm very sure Shayna. I'm going to do an ultrasound, prescribe some prenatal vitamins, and schedule your next appointment. Lay back and raise your gown up for me" he ordered. I laid back and let my mind take over me while he applied this cold jelly shit on my stomach. I'm not ready to be a parent....

After I left from the doctors office, I decided to go to Desean's house. He gotta know what the fuck is going on with me.

I pulled up to his house and banged on the door. He swung the door open looking angry. When he saw it was me, his face softened. All he had on was some basketball shorts. I looked at his bare chest. Mmm lawd, he so damn fine. She Shayna, that's why yo dumb ass pregnant now. Ready to pounce on his ass. I shook my head at my thoughts. He opened the door so I can walk through. "Desean we gotta talk" I started. "Cool with me ma" he said plopping down on the sofa. I'm so nervous, I don't know how to start..

I examined his face, dude looks rough. He look like he hasn't had an ounce of sleep in days. Probably his stupid ass baby mama. Wait.... damn..  I'm his baby mama too! Oh God noooo. "Earth to Shayna!" Desean waved his hand in front of my face, snapping me outta my thoughts. I still have nothing to say.

I pulled out the ultrasounds and handed it to him. He took them and just stared at them. "What the fuck is this?!" he semi-yelled. "A baby Desean. You baby. I went to the doctor today and they told me I that I'm pregnant" I told him. "Nahh that shit ain't mine. You said you was on birth control and you lied? You just tryna trap a nigga!" He shouted. His words cut me like a knife. I just stared at him like he was crazy. I know Damn well this bum ass nigga didn't just tell me this shit! I'm going to kill him! Yall know that theme music from Kill Bill? That shit was playing in my head as I looked around the room for something to kill his ass with. I saw nothing . Fuck it I'm bouta go Rambo on his ass with my bare hands!

I jumped on him and started punching and kicking him. " I hate you Desean!" I screamed. "Get the fuck off of me!" He yelled. He kicked me off of him, causing me to go flying to the floor. I also hit my head on his coffee table. I got up and something red came running down my face. "You ain't nothing but a bitch ass nigga! I told you shit that I ain't never told nobody! And you do me like this?" I yelled at him. "That ain't my fuckin baby. You was probably fuckin the crew while you was here. You know what? Get the fuck outta my house Shayna!" Desean ordered. I walked over to his white sofa, rubbed my hand across my bloody head, and wiped in on his sofa. "You bitch!" He yelled to me. I looked at him one last time and spit on him and ran outta the door.

Bum ass nigga.