Thuggin' Love

Chapter 12

Desean POV

I woke up to see Shayna watching tv. I grabbed her face to kiss her but she stopped me. "Ooh hell nah lovaboy, you got a mean case of dragon breath. Yo shit kicking like karate my nigga! Go fix that, then I'll think about kissing you" she said. My mouth dropped open and I held my hand on my chest, I was shocked. "Damn my shit that bad huh ma?" I asked. "Yes and it's getting worse by the second. Yuck!" She said laughing. Hmm well I got something for that ass then. I climbed on top of her and sat down on her. Then I lifted her arms up above her head and pinned her down. "It's kicking like karate huh? Well it's about to get even worse!" I said. Then I started kissing all over her face. She was screaming and laughing.

I pulled back and looked at her. I really love this girl. And it's about time that she knew. I got up off of her and told her I had something to tell her. "I'm sure it can wait til after you brush yo damn teeth! I'm serious. Fix that shit!" She laughed. "Fine! Fuck" I said getting up to go brush my teeth.

I came back in the room to find it empty. I began to walk down the stairs then the smell of some bomb ass food hit my nose. Damn, I put it down like that, got her ass putting in work in the kitchen? Aha. Ya boy do know how to work that thang.

I walked in the kitchen to see her at the stove stirring something and humming to the music that she played through her phone. She swayed her hips to the rhythm. I just watched her. I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist. I kissed her neck and she let out a soft moan. She better chill out before I bust her open on this table and let her food burn. Aha.

I gotta tell her. Its now or never.

"Shayna, I love you with every fiber of my being. I don't think I've ever felt this way about another female besides my.. mother. You know, when I was in that coma, she came to me. She told me about this woman who would always come to see me. She said she saw the purity in her heart. She thinks that woman would be an amazing person to have in my life. When I came to, I sat and thought about that woman and who could she be. And when I came to, and looked acrossed the room, I saw you. I think you're that woman Shayna. The one that I need. I want you. And I love you" I poured my heart out to her and waited for her response..

Shayna POV

I stood there dumbfounded by what he just told me. He said he loves me. Wow. I think I love him too. But can I love him? I've been hurt so badly by a man I loved before. That man was my father.. I feel too broken to love again. But what if this is what I really need? I wanna be that for Desean. I wanna see him happy. He had no one. And so do I. Maybe this can work. It doesn't hurt to try does it?

I grabbed his face and said, "I love you too Desean". A tear fell from my eye and he wiped it. "I just don't wanna be hurt by another man Desean... my dad allowed some really bad things to happen to me. He let....he let other men rape me for money...money to fuel his drug addiction. He would beat on my mother and I one minute and then the next he'd take us out to eat and love us. He allowed another man to take something so precious to me. My virginity. And after that, I've never been able to trust a man" I confessed to him, while turning off the stove.

"My God Shayna, I didn't know. I really didn't know" he said hugging me tight. "I'll never hurt you in that way. I just want to love you and show you what love really is" Desean said. "I know Desean" I said hugging him back. "Be my g--" Desean was about to say before there was loud knocking at the door. "Who the fuck is that banging on my fuckin door like that!" He yelled.

I went to open the door and saw this pretty chocolate girl, stood about 5'5, weave down her back. She held a child in her arms. The baby looked about 2 years old. "Wea the fuck is Desean?! And who the fuck is you?" the girl asked with a bad ass attitude.
"Look, I'm not about to raise my voice and get disrespectful with yo ghetto ass. You need to tone that shit down with that baby in yo arms. DESEAN SOME BITCH AT THE DOOR ASKIN FOR YOU" I gave her a stank look and moved out the way for Desean.

Desean POV

Oh shit... why the fuck is this bitch here?! "Latasha, why the fuck are you even here?" I asked. "YOU NEED TO HELP TAKE CARE OF THIS FUCKIN BABY DESEAN!" Latasha yelled. "NOW YOU KNOW DAMN WELL THAT AIN'T MY FUCKIN BABY!" I yelled back at her. "Maybe, maybe not. But I know that this baby I'm pregnant with is yours!" I said rubbing her stomach. I damn near fainted. "You're.... you're what?" I studdered. "Yup! P.R.E.G.N.A.N.T. And I'm two weeks. Just found out today" she smirked lookin at Shayna.

I looked at Shayna and she had a questioning look on her face. "Wait.. two weeks? So that means.... you fucked her right after we had sex that night!?" Shayna yelled. Shit.. I was so stressed out that week and Shayna wasn't giving it up, so I fucked Latasha, my ex.

I just stood there. I couldn't even say anything. Why now? Fuck! I swear nothing good has been happening lately. "I.. I can't do this. I'm moving back to G-May's. You can be with your
family" Shayna said walking away.
She's leaving? She can't go! I told her I loved her! She can't do this!

"Shayna baby, please you can't go! I love you. I don't wanna lose you! Come on baby. We weren't even together then" I pleased with her.
"I'm too young to play step - mother to another woman's kids!" Shayna yelled. Her skin got flushed, she looked pale almost. "I...I don't feel good" she said running to the bathroom. I followed her and pulled her hair up while she threw up.

"Had too much to drink last night huh?" I asked. "I guess so" she replied sitting up from the position that she was just in. I stroked her cheek. "Please don't go Shayna. I can't take it here with you not being with me. I want you to be my girl" I begged.
"I don't know Desean. I wanna be your girl but this, her, I don't know" she said. "I'll do whatever it takes Shayna" I pleaded. "Just let me think about it" she said. "I love you Shayna". " I lo--" was all she said before throwing up again.