They didn't want me then, they want me now
Did not want me to win, but now they're proud
Now they're payin' to get in, they in the crowd
Tell me how's it feel now? Tell me, how's it feel now?
Bein' low, yeah you a snake
You puttin' on a show, that Ricki Lake
Hey man I don't trip, my life's great
But swallow that pride, tell me how shit taste
-'Kehlani-how that shit taste-
Nikk.
Tonight , i felt like shit. I been blowing up Jaye's phone for almost a week since the incident but everytime it just goes straight to voicemail, she wont reply to my texts or nun.Honestly if ian have to make this drop i would've still been blowing her shit up. Oh, yeah. Remember when i said my childhood was takin from me at a young age. Welp i started selling drugs at the age of 15. I mean how else was i gone feed my family and live like im livin now. This shit DONT come easy.Yeah its dangerous but shii somebody gotta do it.
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Anyways it was about 3 in the morning. I couldn't sleep for shit. I had so much on my mind so i thought i would just make a couple of drops tonight. Buyers at school aint gone always cut it. So I got this new buyer. He said his name was Wade. Honestly i never did business with him but a nigga wanted 1k worth. That was a nice ass offer so i told him i would deliver it. While walking i felt this un easy feeling .. like i was being watched. Trey ass always told me not to do this shit alone ESPECIALLY when its a new buyer but i mean i never listen. I was stubborn as usual but i mean its been years i think i should kno what the fuck im doin by now.
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A white car slowly approached me. I couldnt see who it was they had tinted windows. I was sure this was Wade. The windows rode down slowly , the back ones first. It was that hoe lasia. She had this smirk on her face."If i can't have you.. then nobody can" I started to turn around but the front Window rode down and there was some tatted guy who had a gun pointed straight at me. He hestitated nun as he pulled the trigger and drove off. It all hadn't hit me yet. I looked down noticing i was laying on the ground. It was so much blood. I blacked out. Iknew for sure this was how i was going to die..
Jaye.
It was about 5:15 am on Saturday morning. I woke up and felt like complete shit. Last week i tried my best just to stay to myself. I kinda avoided everyone and everything. My emotions were numb and im pretty sure it was all over my face, but since it was senior week.. meaning all seniors have a week outta school, i thought I'd just get my mind right.
I shuffled to the bathroom and realized my eyes was red asf. I threw water on my face and brushed my teeth. Ma wasn't home as usual ,, she usta be gone all day workin hard asf for us to live...,but my sister has graduated so now its just us two. I sat down on the couch and took my phone off of airplane mode. The shit kept buzzing as all the messages came to my phone. Nikk was one half till about 3..The rest was Angel and she never blows my shit up. I turned on the t.v. It was on the news. I really aint have the strength to change it so i watched..
Fox26News
"Today has been a very sad tragedy. 18 year old Nicki Mcdaniels has been shot three times by what seem like a drive by. Police say there is no description but there was one witness "
This shit wasn't real maan! Honestly shit hadn't really hit me yet i was just stuck in my tracks. I scanned through the messages Angel Sent Me:
Angel:JAYE R U OKAY??,, I punched the shit out that bitch!(4:29pm:Friday)
Angel: you want me to come over? (4:45pmFriday)
Angel: jaye its been a week , everybody's worried about yo crazy ass ...(5:08pmThursday)
Angel: okay well maybe i lied... im worried about you nigga... and you netta be dead for not texting me back. (friday 6:25)
Angel:Jayee! Omfg jayeee! Call me maan! No bullshit!(5:05am Saturday)
