Do you ever think of me, when you lie?
Lie down in your bed, your bed of lies
And I knew better, than to look in your eyes
They only pretend, you would be mine
And you know how you made me, believe
You had me caught in every web, that you weaved
But do you ever think of me, when you lie?
Lie down in your bed your bed of lies
I just figured if you saw me, if you looked in my eyes
You'd remember our connection and be freed from the lies
I just figured I was something that you couldn't replace
But there was just a blank stare and I couldn't relate
I just couldn't understand and I couldn't defend
What we had, what we shared, and I couldn't pretend
When the tears roll down it's like you ain't even notice em
If you had a heart, I was hoping that you would've showed it some
What the fuck you really telling me, what you telling me
I could tell you lying, get the fuck out, don't yell at me
'Bed of lies - Nicki Minaj-
Jaye.
I been here for three days now. Each and everday I sit there hoping she'll make a sign showing she's still alive. Thats she's fighting. Tonight would be another sleepless night. I held her hand " push through man. This aint you. This death shit. This aint how you suppose to go. Just give me one sign... one sign that shows your still with me nikk." She squeezed my hand "DOCTOR!!" I began screammin repeatedly. The doctor smiled. He said she should be up no later then tomorrow. He also said i should go home and get some rest. He could tell i was stressed. I agreed and gathered all my things and caught a taxi home.
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I texted Angel and of course she was excited but she yelled at my ass because she said she couldve picked me up. I went to see if ma was home from her business trip yet. She wasnt her room was just the way i left it. I went to go take a shower. I put on some joggers and a half shirt. Nikk was on my mind so i went to read some of the text she sent me.
Nikk: Jaye i swear that wasn't intended. She kissed me i didnt kiss her (3:45pm)
Nikk:Jaye just let me explain everything...please. (4:25pm)
Nikk: None of this shit would have happened if you would've never just walked out on me! (5:23pm)
Nikk: ian mean that... omfg JAYE JUST ANSWER ME! (10:30PM) This girl was bout bipolar as'f.
Nikk: Look Jaye... the hoes... ion want em. I want you. Why can you see that man. You think i blow mfs phones up on a daily ? Hell nahh but i do this shit for you. Just... just give me a chance to explain everything and make everything right.(2:59am) i couldn't help but think this was possibly the message she sent me right before she got shot. I started to think this was all my fault. I know i couldve talked her out of making the drop...but i wasnt there for here. I layed my head back and turned on 'Let it go by Akon' wtf was i gone do with my life man. All i know is tomorrow ill see nikk and she'll be okay and right now thats all that matters.
Here's another chapter.. this is short only because i have something planned for the next few chapters and i dont want to rush it. Also i now have a new book called 'I Gotta Boyfriend But I Want Her' check that out for me and tell me what yall think. Comment. Vote. -Jaye Mariell-
