Leather, Love, and Lace*EDITING*

.10 But here we are

*Carson's P.O.V*
I sat next to Jo, who has been a good friend sense she figured out me and Dean were together.
"You guys have to have a wedding."
"Why?"
"To do something slightly normal, it can just be a few of us."
"This is for you isn't it Jo, you want me to play dress up." I snickered at the thought of me in a wedding dress, hell less then a year ago Iaughed at the thought of anybody loving me. But here we are.
"I think it sounds like a good idea." I heard Dean and Sam enter the room.
"It would be nice to do something normal for once." Sam tacked on.
"C'mon Carson!" Jo threw in her puppy dog face.
"Oh alright, why the hell not."
Jo pulled me away, up to the kitchen. We sat down at the table, across from each other.
"Hey I want to apologize for flirting with Dean the last time I-"
"You didn't know, Jo. It's really fine."
"Good, I think I like you and Dean better then me and Dean anyway, so where should we have the wedding."
"Uh, out behind Bobby's there's this waterfall and pond. Me and Dean used to go there a lot as kids."
"Sounds good, now for your dress."
I sighed, I hated dresses. But maybe one for the right reason.
"Okay, I'll wear a white dress. It's not going to be crazy fancy or anything. Plain and simple."
"Okay we'll find one."
"The only flowers allowed are wild flowers."
"Like from Bobby's field?" She had a slight cringe in her voice.
"Yea." I put the object at rest.
***
I walked around with Jo and Ellen at the shop. I had been trying dresses all day. I sighed.
"Carson, what's wrong."
"I wish my mom was here, or Mary. They were such good friends. They just died on the same night.and I-" I took a deep breath before I started to cry. Ellen pulled me into a hug.
"Darlin' I have an idea. I know you don't want a fancy dress-I have Mary Winchesters wedding dress. We were friends before she wanted to have her kids grow up normal."
I looked at Ellen's eyes and saw her sincerity. Jo grabbed my hand and pulled me to the car.
***
I looked in the mirror, the dress was simple and white. A stretchy white material, covered in lace. It was tight until under my butt and dropped straight to the floor. It had a sweet heart neckline, mesh embedded with jewels created a full sleeve, it seemed as if the dress grew from my skin. It was backless and met at a v right at the small of my back. My tattoo was visible.
"This is it." I wiped the tears from my eyes.
Jo and Ellen smiled, she handed me a picture of Mary in the same dress. I smiled. It was good to have a price of her.
***
Everyone went back to Bobby's, for the wedding. As soon as I walked in the door I headed upstairs. I pulled the box out from under my bed. I reached in and grabbed the velvet box, the necklace my mother wore at her wedding. It was nothing like my style, but I wanted a price of them with me. I hung it in the closet with the dress. I'm not sure if I was ready for this.
I headed to mine and Dean's room. He was laying on the bed. I pulled off my jeans and climbed into bed. Deans arm snaked around my waist.
*Dean's P.O.V*
"Are you sure about this, Dean?"
"About what."
"Are you sure you want to be with me forever."
"Of course I do, what the hell are you talking about."
"I just, I wouldn't want-"
"No, Carson this is the most sure I've been about anything in my life. I love you."
"I love you Dean." I rolled over and kissed her jawline, making my away to her neck. I started giving her love bites.
"Dean." It came out breathy and lustful. My hands found her hips and and held them. I kissed her lips, it was deep. I put my hands in her ribcage, and unclipped her bra. I pulled off her shirt, kissing down her tattoo. I took off her bra and she inhaled sharply.
"Are you sure your ready."
"I'm sure." She pulled of my shirt as I gave her hickeys down her breasts. Her gasps were so adorable. I wanted more. I kissed down to her underwear, and pulled them of, kissing the scars on her thighs. I looked at her, her eyes were shut tight. I took her hand. I kissed her jawline and whispered in her ear.
"You are so perfect. I love you, open your eyes baby girl. Her body relaxed.
I kissed down, and started to flick my tongue. Her moans were more addicting then alcohol. I watched as she writhed around and wrapped her hands into the sheets. Her legs tightened around my face and she came. She sat up and undid my pants, pulling my boxers down. I pulled her mouth off me and kissed her.
"You sure?"
"I'm sure Dean." She went into the bed side table and grabbed a condom. She couldn't open, when she finally opened it she couldn't get it on. When we finally did she laughed a blush spread across her face. She leaned her forehead on mine. I kissed her. She was so sexy with anything she did, even if that was being awkward and adorable.
I thrusted into her, her nails digging into my back. I put my lips on hers in an attempt to quiet her down.
"Dean, harder." She was laying on her stomach, I laid my hands on the small of her back and went as hard as I could. I could see her bury her face in a pillow to muffle a scream, a smirk rose on my face. I leaned down and sucked on her neck. I felt her body shake under me as I went over the edge.
I collapsed on the bed next to her. She rolled over in attempt to catch her breath. I pulled her into my chest, she wrapped her arms around me like I was going to be ripped away.
"I'm not going anywhere."
I felt her breathing steady and I eventually drifted off to sleep.
It wasn't my first time, it wasn't her first time. But it was OUR first time. That meant the world.
***
The sun woke me up, I looked at Carson next to me. She still had no close on. I smiled.
"Wake up Carson."
She stood up and pulled the sheets with her, going to stand at the window. The sheet hung loose barely covering everything. I came up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist.
"I love you." The words left her mouth as a whisper, like she thought I was going to leave.
"I love you."
*Carson's P.O.V*
I pulled away for Dean. Pilling on my bralette, underwear, and his shirt. He pulled on a pair of boxers and we headed downstairs. Hand in hand.
I sat on the counter and drank a cup of coffee. Dean walked stood between my legs and laid his head on my chest, his arms wrapped around my waist. I smiled and rested my chin on his head.
"Good morning you two."
"Morning Jo." She waltzed into the kitchen, already dressed for the day. I shook my head.
***
I came down stairs, classic jeans, grey tee, with a blue flannel over top. I sat down at the kitchen counter and ate a muffin Ellen must've made. My wet hair dripping on the floor.
Dean and Sam were talking in the living room. This was it, everyone we had left all together. I couldn't have asked for more.
        I couldn't have pictures me and Dean, our wedding. This family. Sammy back. I wanted to, but never could.
        But here we are.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>okay, I'm giving you guys their wedding because we all know Dean wants to have a normal life and this is as close as he can get, also I like playing the Devils advocate and breaking hearts. So enjoy the fluff because I'm probably going to make you cry in the future. I'm sorry in advance and yes, I learned from John green. The wedding probably won't be all that sappy. I know, bathe me in holy water I'm a dirty child. Whoops. That's my first time writing smut and I wrote it while eating so it's probably not that good. Wedding is in next chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed, and yes If YOU CANT LAUGH WHILE HAVING SEX THE RELATION SHIP ISNT REAL. SEX IS AWKWARD AND UNCOMFORTABLE AT SOME POINTS, I assume I'm a virgin but I can only imagine.
Ily
~Cammie