Leather, Love, and Lace*EDITING*

.21 Just One Last Kiss

*Dean's P.O.V*
          We buried her in the back yard at Bobby's, between Bobby's and my now-empty grave. I wished I was laying in that grave more then ever. Sam avoided me, mostly because I spent almost all my time sitting on the couch drinking Jack. It seems like every time I finished a bottle Carson would leave me another one. She had bottles upon bottles hidden in all of Bobby's books. I smiled thinking about how she drank less, she wasn't drinking to not be alive, just to calm her nerves and forget about some hunts almost immediately I felt the empty space beside me evade back into my chest and the smile faded off. I downed another bottle. I woke up to someone putting me to bed, I opened my eyes to see Carson sitting on the edge of the bed pushing my hair back from my face.
"Dean, what did you do to yourself?"
"Your not real." I groaned at the sound of her voice, so sweet it hurt deep in my chest and rolled over.
"Dean look at me." Her hands landed on either side of my face. "I'm here it's me." She looked more beautiful then ever she wore some light blue jeans and a bleach white shirt. Her feet were bear and she wore her usual belt, the brown leather one with the flowers punched into it. Her hair was chocolate brown and her skin was bronze her face looked Dewey and young. Her hair perfectly waved, it seemed almost as if the sun wasn't shining on her, it was coming from her.
"Carson?" I asked, sadness dripping from my face.
"It's me baby." She pulled my face up to hers and kissed me. I felt a few tears fall into my face.
"What's wrong baby girl."
"Nothing, just go to bed." She kissed my forehead and I rolled over and slept.
*Carson's P.O.V*
I leaned on the door jamb and looked at deans sleepy body, the sun shine on his face and he looked at peace, I looked at my painted nails, white on my hands and feet. I wiped the liquid off my face and flashed out.
When I got back Cas was waiting.
"Carson, you know you can't be with him."
"I know Cas."
"Your his and Sam's guardian angel along with me, but that's about all. You have to be careful if you mess up too many times you won't be able to walk earth in your own body."
"I'll be careful Cas, I promise."
I strolled through the field, this was heaven. My heaven. The field was long soft grass and daisies everywhere, it was sunny all the time and the far edge of the field was rows and rows of sunflowers. Dean walked through the field and wrapped his arms around me. Here all my tattoos were gone, so we're his and our scars were gone, because this was heaven. I wrapped my arms around 'Dean' but it didn't feel the same, because it wasn't the same. He vanished and I sat down in the field and leaned back. My hair splaying out under me by all the flowers. I felt someone lay down next to me. I looked to see her laying next to me, Blonde hair and icy blue eyes, I turned to look at who laid down on the other side of me, I saw her long brown hair and hazel eyes.
"Mom, Mary." Here they were the two people I admired most. I had been missing them my whole life and they were here. Now that sat in front of me.
"Carson baby, you have to listen to me. You love him. Don't shut out the last person you let in, don't give up on the one who wants the best for you and will fight for you." With tears in my eyes I stared at the two and Mary began to talk.
"Carson, He's going to kill himself without you. You are the best damn hunter I've ever seen. You need to go down there and be his guardian angel. Protect him, go be with him."
Before I could say anything they were gone. I laid down in the field and closed my eyes, opening them to see the stars. I looked down and realized I was resting on the hood of the-A impala, and "Dean." Sat next to me. I felt my chest ache. I needed to go back down to Dean. I didn't care about the consequences anymore. I stared at the stars as they danced in front of me. The pink, purple, and blue swirling into the white pin points glowing in the sky. I smiled knowing the same stars were aging on earth.
"Get your ass down there soon." I felt the bench that had appeared under me shift I looked down at all the people next to me, Bobby, Ellen, Jo, Cas, Mom, Mary, John, a couple other hunters.
"I will."
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Sorry it took me so long to update this was our last week of volleyball so it had been pretty hectic, sorry it was short! I told you guys she wasn't long gone! Anyway thanks for being patient with me, I'm kind of hesitant to write chapters quickly because I know this is going to be over soon and I really am not ready for that.
I love you guys!
~Cammie.