Leather, Love, and Lace*EDITING*

.12 Teach me.

*Carson's P.O.V*
         Dean sat in the parking lot fixing the impala. I knew the basics but not near as much as he did. I made my way over and sat next to him.
"Can I help."
"Do you know how?"
"Teach me." Dean came up from under the hood and looked me in the eyes- they shined like when we were little.
"Okay." He grabbed my hand and we got to work.
*Dean's P.O.V*
"Teach me." I stood back to look at Carson. She wanted me to teach her about cars-even Sammy didn't ever ask that. He would just look in books. I took ahold of her hand-man I loved her.
***
        By the time we finished working on the impala it was close to night time. I closed the hood and leaned back next to Carson, I threw my arm around her shoulder and pulled her into my chest. She had oil all over her hands.
"I can't say I've ever seen you more attractive."
"Same for you." She replied, I laughed as she walked away. She reappeared with two beers, and tossed me one. 
"Do you think Sammy is okay?"
"Yea why?"
"You don't think he's a little...off?"
"Maybe a little, why?"
"He isn't like talking to me much-or around me. He used to follow us like a puppy Dean."
"He grew up-realized he didn't need us." I looked at her eyes-she sighed.
"I want him to need me still too." I reassured her and took her hand, she smiled weakly. This was more about her own brother then Sam.
"You want to talk about it." I knew better then to trust her silence.
"Dean-I was his mom. I know it was the same for you-but you still have Sammy. You succeeded I failed. Andrew is dead because of me."
"He pushed in front of yo-"
"No Dean, I took the first shot-I jumped in front of the bullet. That was my choice he shouldn't have pushed me down. I should've taken that second bullet." I looked in her eyes. She wished she would've died-would've been much easier then living like this.
"If you had taken that bullet you wouldn't be here. You know where I would be. Dead. Or in some bar to drinking until I didn't know which way is up."
"But why couldn't I have saved everyone."
"You just can't Cars, let me let you in on a secret-when we were dealing with the demon of the past. I went to my moms death and Andrews-any way it worked out they both died. You and him-or just him. There was nothing you could've done."
        She looked at me-and sighed. I pulled her into a hug. You just couldn't save everyone and that was the harsh truth. She leaned her head on my shoulder.
"Your the only one I have Dean, your still the only one here for me-for me to talk to."
"Teach me." I whispered into her ear. She knew what it meant. Teach me to rely on you a bit-teach me to talk to you.
"I'm going to take a shower." She got up and headed to the bathroom.
*Carson's P.O.V*
           I heard the bathroom door open.
"It's me." Dean came in. I heard clothes hitting the floor and started to get nervous-he stepped into the shower.
"I couldn't know you were in her naked and not jump on the chance." His lips attached to my neck-sucking my sweet spot. I couldn't help but moan. He connected our lips while picking me up. I wrapped my legs around his torso as he entered me. I took a sharp breathe in. He began to thrust into me until he was pounding into me as hard as possible.  His hand or lips stayed over my mouth to keep my quiet. My nails dig into his back. My back pressed against the shower wall. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes as my stomach tightened and I came all over Dean. I collapse onto him as he came. My head resting on his shoulders, his hands on my waist.
"I love you."
"I love you too." His hands landed on my cheeks as he pulled me into a kiss.
"So much." He added when he broke the kiss. My legs were still shaking when he set me down. He began to wash my hair for me.
"Why?" I asked him when he put conditioner in it.
"I love your hair."
"And you were obviously to exhausted to do it." I laughed at him.
         We got dressed and headed to our bed. "Hunt tomorrow morning" Sam yelled.
"K!" Dean and I called. I snuggled into his chest, Dean bent down and kissed my forehead.
"Night Carson."
***
          I watched as Dean died in front of me, hanging over Sam's lifeless body. My mom, Mary, John, my dad, everyone appeared.
"You failed Carson."
"THEY'RE ALL DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU!"
         My eyes opened and I sat up. Tears on my cheeks.
"You okay?" Dean asked-half asleep.
"Bad dream." I said still gasping. He knew I didn't want to talk about it so he sat up and pulled me into his chest. He rocked me back and forth.
"I'm here, your okay." He whispered until I finally fell asleep.
***
*Deans P.O.V*
I watched as the vampires came out of the barn.
"Mother fuck." Carson yelled as she took out three at one time. She got in this mode where she could kick even my ass. Pissed off at the world I guess. I kept her in my peripheral vision. A vampire pulled a blade and lashed her in the side. I went to run when one of them got ahold of me. I turned to keep fighting-Carson would be okay. She was always okay.
          When all the vampires were dead Carson sank to the ground.
"SAMMY!" We both ran over to Carson she had lost a lot of blood and was sitting with her head between her knees.
"I'm fine." She stood up-clearly wobbly but determined. She ripped the hem off her t-shirt and tied it around the wound before pulling out her lighter and torching the bodies.
"Let's go." She walked to the impala. It was so Carson insisting she can do it on her own, wanting people to need her.
***
         When we got back to the hotel room Carson brought a first aid kit out of her bag before cleansing the wound and starting to stitch it her self.
"Here let me-"
"I got it."
"Carson why won't you let me help you."
"Because I shouldn't be your problem. I'm not going to be a burden Dean."
"You know what's going to be a burden. YOUR DEAD BODY CARSON-YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD DO IT ON YOUT OWN AND LOOK AT YOU STITCHING YOUR SELF UP. CARSON WHAT THE FUCK WOULD I HAVE DONE IF YOU DIED?" She flinched as I swung my arms out. Did she really think I would hit her?
"THATS NOT MY FAULT.ANY OF US COULD'VE DIED ITS THE JOB."
"YOU JUMPED IN FRONT OF A VAMPIRE TO SAVE SAM- WHEN HE COULD'VE TAKEN CARE IF IT HIMSELF."
"You would've done the same god damned thing." She said after cringing from my hands again.
        I watched as she walked away. I shouldn't have said that. I listened to the shower water turn on.
*Carson's P.O.V*
         I took out my knife and slit my wrist. Deep this time, I'm not really sure if I meant to but it happened. I started to get light headed. I laid down on the floor and watched the blood pool up. I wrote Dean and Sam a simple I love you so much.
        I heard a knock at the door. I wanted to say just a minute but the words couldn't leave my mouth.
"CARSON!"
"WHY IS THERE BLOOD!? FUCK IT."
          I heard the door kick open and fall shut behind Dean. He pulled me into his arms. Dean looked frantically through the bathroom drawers until he found the gauze. He wrapped it around my wrist.
"Stay with me, come on." I felt his tears fall on to my head.
"I'm fine" my voice was hoarse and barely there.
         Dean finished undressing me and himself before pulling us both into the water to wash away all the blood. Mine and the vampires.
*Dean's P.O.V*
          I sat on the shower floor with Carson's limp body in my arms. I felt the tears run down my face.
"This is all my fault I'm so sorry." I kissed her fore head and then lips.
"I didn't mean those things-I know you're strong enough to do it on your own. I just don't know what I would do if I lost you."
"I love you." Carson's eyes looked a little more awake.
"I love you too. I know." I wrapped a towel around her and pulled on my clothes. I put towels on the floor to soak up the blood.
"Stay with me baby girl." I carried her to bed and laid her down. I crawled in next to her-being careful to not wake up Sam. I wrapped my arms around her.
"Just let me help you."
"Teach me." She said. And I would. She was my problem.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Well hello. Sorry it's been a bit sense I updated I've been working, getting ready for school and just got done with volleyball try outs. (I MADE THE TEAM!!!) YEA so the next few chapters are full of Carson/Dean sadness- but little cute things as well. I promise if there's a bad part I will give you something happy as well. Enjoy. Ily
~Cammie