Good enough?

chapter ~ 14

Cole's POV

"I forgot that I...had a date with Travis today." she looked down.

When she said his name I don't know what came over me I just felt so upset and hurt. But she likes Travis so what's the big deal? I asked her if she needed a ride but she declined.

A feelings of jealousy ran over my body. I couldn't help but want her to myself. I grabbed her wrist and....kissed her. It felt so right. She deepened the kiss which shocked me. I wanted her to myself. At times I know I can be a jerk to her but I just want her attention.

My heart was pounding in my chest. She was fragile and delicate. I didn't want to hurt her. But to protect her. She's been hurt so much and she deserves better than that. Travis is my friend but he doesn't deserve Rachel.

Before I knew it she broke from the kiss and ran away. I felt hurt and confused. Apart of me wanted to punch a wall while another part of me wanted to chase after her.

What did I just do? Maybe it was a mistake? I guess I'm the only one who has feelings for the other....

I didn't want to suffocate her. So I just let her go.

Rachel's POV

What did I just do? If Travis found out he would be crushed. I can't believe I let that happen. If I don't tell Travis it'll be like I lied to him. Either way I'm lying to him. In the end I'm a horrible person who hurt him.

I'm a horrible person.

A horrible person.

Horrible. Person.

Those words kept echoing in my head Eating away at my insides.

Eventually I got home and headed upstairs and kicked off my shoes and changed into a t-shirt and some pj shorts. 

I layed under the covers and tried to sleep but I couldn't I just kept thinking of how hurt he would be when he found out I kissed Cole.

It was even worse that during the moment I enjoyed it. There wasn't a bone in my body that had the urge to leave.

I have to tell Travis. Just the thought of seeing him hurt, hurt me.

_______

I couldn't sleep at all last night. I just kept thinking of how I was going to tell him. The thought of how he'd react kept me up.

Dragging myself out of the bed I did my make up and put on a marvel shirt, some ripped jeans, and my red toms. My hair of course was in a messy bun. I grabbed my bag and a banana and took my moms car to school.

I guess you could say I wanted to avoid Travis anyway possible. But of course I'm me so I'm bound to run into him. I went to my locker and as I closed it I saw Cole. I wanted to say something but he just walked past me like I was invisible. I felt...hurt. I headed to my first period and couldn't shake what I was feeling from class to class. I was so distracted in every class lost in my thoughts.

Eventually lunch came and I decided I needed to find Travis to tell him The truth.

I found him sitting at a table with girls and the guys.

"Can we talk?" I asked and he nodded. We headed into the hallway. No one was there and it was quiet.

"What happened yesterday? We had a date and you blew me off." I felt so guilty once he asked me that.

"I...I was dealing with some stuff to where I wasn't stable. Cole ended up taking me to his house because after crying so much I was just exhausted and fell asleep." his expression changed to a sad puppy face.

"So you blew me off for Cole?"  I looked down and felt horrible.

"It wasn't like that. But there is something you should know." I felt a lump in my throat. My haze fell to the floor.

"Cole kissed me....I didn't mean to hurt you. If I had kept it a secret I wouldn't be any better than Trevor and I just wanted to be honest...I'm so sorry. I understand if you hate me." I couldn't help but ramble. I looked up to see his reaction. He laughed a little.

What is happening? Why is he chuckling?

"I could never hate you Rach. I'm glad you we're honest with me. I knew you liked cole....apart of me was just hoping that maybe just maybe I could get you to fall for me. I'm not mad....sad yeah. In the end I just want you to be happy." After hearing Travis saying this my mind was blown.

"I don't like Cole it was just a kiss. And he kissed me."

"Rach did you try to stop the kiss?" my eyes fell to the floor. "That's what I thought. I know you have feelings for him. Stop fighting it and just do what makes you happy."

Before I could say anything Travis kissed my cheek and walked back into the cafeteria.

What just happened?

______

The day went by fast. I avoided Cole the whole day. Don't ask why.

I clasped in my bed. All that ran through my head was what happened between Travis and I. What did he mean stop fighting it? Stop fighting what?! Ughhh!

Why must things be so complicated?! I just...I don't know. I guess I never thought of Cole as nothing more than a friend.

Do I love him? I mean yeah like a brother. But that kiss. It was so much more than just a kiss. There was a spark. Maybe I've always had feelings for him I just tried to turn them into sibling feelings? He doesn't feel that way about me I'm sure of it. That kiss was just a in the moment thing.

I don't know what I'm talking about. Things are fine the way they are.

"Rachel! You have a visitor." My mother called from downstairs. I rushed down to see who it was.

"What are you doing here?" I looked up at him then down at the floor.

"Can we talk?"

_____________________________________________________________________

Ahhh I'm so sorry for the wait. I would write then stop then write more and I got a bit distracted. I will assure you that right after I publish this I'll be starting on the next chapter and I will be out in less than a week. Tell me what you all think of this chapter in the comments! Please vote and if you're still reading to this point thank you so much for your support!!! Love you all!!