Can't Let You Go (Adommy)

Chapter 13

*** TRIGGER WARNING!! DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED!!! I WILL PUT A CHAPTER SUMMARY AT THE END FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO SHOULD NOT READ THIS SECTION!!! ***

ADAM'S POV
Tommy and I didn't talk for the rest of the break after that night. I texted and called, but he never answered me. I figured he was probably busy with something, so I didn't put too much thought into it.
School started back today, so I jumped out of bed, ate breakfast, and drove to school a lot more quickly than I normally do. I was so excited to see my Glitterbaby.
When I got to school, it was only a few minutes before the bell, so I decided to wait for Tommy at his locker so that I could see him before class. I waited a minute or two, and then I saw my baby walking toward his locker.
He looked upset over something. I walked up to him and reached out to give him a hug, but he ducked away from me.
"What's wrong?" I asked, following him to his locker.
"Go away," Tommy said harshly. "Everything was a mistake." We were both silent for a moment. Tears started to well in both of our eyes.
"How could you say that?" I asked. I was hoping that this was some cruel joke.
"I- I don't want to talk to you anymore. Never talk to me again." Without saying another word, he turned and walked to his first class.
I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I cried so hard that I felt physically sick. I couldn't believe this was happening.
I walked out of the school and drove home. I needed to be by myself. "No, you need to be with Tommy," I thought to myself. "Well too bad. He doesn't want you. And do you blame him?" I shouted back in my mind.
I cried so hard that I could barely see the road. I couldn't think straight. "The first person I have real feelings for, but it goes to waste," I whispered to myself. "Why do I even try anymore..?"
I got home and walked upstairs to my bedroom. I picked out my sharpest blade and sliced up and down my wrist.
"Do it. Cut deep. Kill yourself. You have nothing to live for anyway," I yelled at myself. I realized I was right. So I cut deeply into both wrists, laid down on my bedroom floor, and waited for the end. "Finally," I thought to myself, "you finally had the guts to actually do it."
The last thing I saw before blacking out was my framed picture of Tommy and me that I had taken when I stayed with him.

***CHAPTER SUMMARY: Tommy rejects Adam at school, so Adam attempts the worst (hence the trigger warning). That's all you missed. There's nothing else important, so PLEASE do not go back and read it if you're unstable.***

(A/N: It will get better. I promise. Please don't quit reading. And thank you for your support!)