Can't Let You Go (Adommy)

Chapter 14

TOMMY'S POV
After my interaction with Adam, I cried so hard that I didn't bother going to any of my classes. I locked myself into a bathroom stall and just sobbed. I only did what I had to. If I continued to see him, I'd be beaten by my mother even more than I had been. She had found the roses and the remains of our picnic.
Why can't I be happy?! Just because the person I love is the same sex as me doesn't mean that I shouldn't be able to be with him. I blinked away my tears for a moment as I realized the truth of my own words.
"I'm seventeen years old, damn it, and I'll be with who I want to," I said quietly to myself. I got up, brushed myself off, and walked to Adam's house. I didn't know how anything would work, but what I did know was that I was going to be with my Babyboy.
After what felt like the longest fifteen minutes imaginable, I got to his front door. I knocked, but nobody answered.
"Adam?!" I hollered, but I didn't get a reply. After waiting for a minute, I opened the unlocked door for myself and ran up the stairs to his bedroom.
I walked through the door and screamed at the sight of my love on the floor, his wrists slit, his now pale face staring at a picture of us.
I ran to him and wept into his chest. "Think, Tommy, think," I ordered myself after a minute.  I got out my cell phone, dialed 911, and told them to get here as quickly as the could.
I kissed Adam's lips slowly and brushed his hair out of his beautiful face. "I'm so sorry," I told him. "I love you more than anything. I always will. I don't want to live without you." My voice broke into a sob as I screamed out, "Don't leave me!"
I was a snotty mess and I couldn't think about a single thing apart from Adam. He was the only thing I cared about and the only person I would ever be with.
"I can't lose you," I whispered quietly and grabbed his hand. While emergency responders took five minutes to get here, it felt like a year. I got in the back of the ambulance with him and held his blood-covered hand all the way to the hospital.
"Just hang on, baby, it'll be okay," I repeated quietly. I now admit that I was probably trying to convince myself more so than him...