To My Almost

Prologue

2014: Lord, please sana malaman ng crush ko na nageexist ako. Na makilala niya ako. Okay na po ako dun.

2015: Lord, bakit napasobra po ata? Sana hindi nalang niya ako nakilala. Ang sakit po pala.

2016: Lord, can you send a shooting star? For my last wish.

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Are you in love? Are you falling in love? Are you falling out of love?
Then please, please don't forget this list. Dont forget this prolouge.
Don't forget P.R.O.L.O.G.U.E.

P - lan. You plan ahead. It's called 'The Love Game Plan'. Dahil sa lahat ng laro, ang mga nagpaplano ang madalas nananalo. Yes, ang love ay isang laro.
    Let me rephrase a line in Game of Thrones, "When you play the game of love, you win or you lose."
    Let's face the truth, aminin na natin na isang laro ang pag'ibig. You should plan for different situations. Plan A to Z. If plan A didn't work, use the other letters. Yung tipong gagawa ka ng accidental meet-ups para lang guluhin yung tadhana niyo. Hindi naman kasi talaga kayo dapat magiging close pero dahil nga maharot ka, ayun pi-nush mo pa rin; kaya ang ending? Regrets. But sometimes, they're worth it.

R - easons. Lahat ng bagay may rason. Oo lahat. May rason kung bakit niya kinuha ang number mo. There's also a reason why both of you attended the same class three times a week. There's also a reason for his unjust behavior. And there's always a reason kung bakit pinagsasabay-sabay niya kayo.

O - ptimistic. Be optimistic all the time. Mataas ang pride mo diba? Hindi ka dapat magmukhang mahina, magmukhang nasaktan at magmukhang malungkot kapag sinaktan ka. Don't give your rivals the satisfaction of seeing you hurt or lose.    They're happy while you're sitting in the corner and wimping.
     Stand up and wear your plastic smile. Kunwari wala kang nakita para kunwari hindi ka nasaktan. Itira mo para sa sarili mo yung pride mo. Kailangan samahan mo ng kanta, "but you won't take away my pride, no not this time." (Decode by Paramore) para mas dama mo.

L - abel. Labels. Kailangan may label. Look at those commercials, those products, lahat sila may label kasi yung mga wala, ginagawang brand X. Bukod sa hindi na nga naging kayo para tawagin kang X eh ang pangit pang pakinggan.
    May nabasa naman ako, "You don't need labels. You just need commitment to sustain the connection."
    Contrasting? Depende yan sayo, kung mapapel ka sa buhay then go after labels. Kung dyan tatahimik ang kaluluwa mo. Pero hindi lahat ng labels, masaya. "Friends" lang tayo.

O - kay. Okay? It's okay not to be okay sabi nila. Kung hindi nagwork yung almost relationship thing niyo, kung nakita mong mas gusto niya ang iba, kung naaawa ka sa sarili mo, just shrug your shoulders then whisper to yourself, "okay" sarcastically. Remember! Be optimistic. (Ang pride isalba!)

G - o with the flow. You can't cross a river with a very fast and strong current.
     Kadalasan makiayon ka na lang kung alam mo na wala ka nang magagawa. Hangga't kaya mong magtiis, hangga't kaya mong masaktan, hangga't mahal mo pa rin siya at hindi magawang bitawan, go with the flow ka na lang. Just be sure you'll be the one who's responsible to your own feelings. 'Wag ka nang manisi ng iba.

U - nderstand. Intindihin kasi ang bawat tao. Kahit hindi ka psychology student, matuto kang umintindi ng mga tao. Intindihin mo rin yung asal niyang mala-hayop kasi nga kahit ganun, may rason pa din. Sometimes, acceptable and understandable but most of the time, it's impossible.

E - xpectations. Paulit-ulit na lang kasi at dyan tayo nadadali. Yan ang blackhole dito. Expect dito, expect doon kaya ayan nadidisappoint. Expect for the best but don't forget to expect the worst. Kagaya nga sa Plan, para maiready mo yung sarili mo, para kung sakali, it'll hurt less.

Na-absorb mo ba?
Ayan sige pwede mo nang ituloy ang pagbabasa. Don't forget this list throughout your journey here (book), you may apply this, you may change it but don't forget it, to avoid committing the same mistake twice.

Pina-fall. Tumalon. Nahulog. Lumagapak. Nasaktan.

Tanga.

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Author's note:

So here's the prologue.
Some will disagree to my list but all those written above are only for the purpose of writing this story. You may apply it in your life or just leave it there.

Thanks :)